tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-42573899314640466372024-03-14T05:19:55.907-04:00Just my thoughtsThis blog is a collection of my thoughts and feelings or whatever is on my mind at the time.Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.comBlogger478125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-28200671518634137222017-11-25T17:21:00.003-05:002017-11-25T17:21:52.381-05:00Dear John, Dear SamanthaIts been more than a year now. I miss you so much. Every time something happens in my life good or bad I want to call you. I want to tell you whats happening. How the crazy family is doing with out you; how all the kids are doing; mainly I just want to hear your voice one more time. I want to hear you say my name "Hey Beck!" the way only you could. I want to hear your laugh. I want to see your wonderful face!<br />
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I moved back home to Pittsburgh. Kevin and I have a house nested in the woods just like you would imagine Kevin would have. I love my new job. It is just the job I have wanted. I wish I could tell you that.<br />
My daughter's divorce is final a year now, I wish I could talk to you about all the details and everything that has happened since then, tell you about the crazy things her boys say and do. My son has a new position as a senior pastor of a church, you would be so proud of him, you would love his family.<br />
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Mom is doing ok. She is taking less medications now and seems a lot like her old self, although just as crazy.<br />
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Our sister, you know the one you who says you are her favorite, she is still hurting. Having a really rough time with the loss of you. She walks through each day but is really not dealing well.<br />
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We still cry a lot. I miss you so much!<br />
Your Loving Sister<br />
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Dear Sam,<br />
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Just one short year ago from today you were fighting so very hard to get your life back! You had hope that you would come home to your family. But that never happened. I wish I could have come to see you.<br />
I miss you sweetheart! I cry for you too.<br />
Your loving auntBeckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-73070088586387636962017-07-16T19:08:00.001-04:002017-07-16T19:08:05.809-04:00Dear JohnDear John,<br />
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I can't believe it has been 9 months since your gone. I never thought this would happen. Our hearts are broken. I know we sometimes didn't talk for a little while but not this long. We are all trying to get on with our lives, but you were such a vital part of our lives we don't know how to do that. I don't know how to do that. Who am I supposed to talk to to help me make sense of our crazy family? It's been you for so long. Who is supposed to put funny pictures on Facebook or crazy comments on my posts? Other's try but there are not you. Who is supposed to help me keep this family together without letting me get in too deep? Who is supposed to keep us laughing when things look dim?<br />
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It's so hard! I can not imagine what we will do for the rest of our lives without you here. Everyone is feeling the pain. I know it is not just me. We are all broken without you!<br />
People say time will heal your wounds but time is only making us miss you more! I have big changes going on in my life right now and I need to talk to my little-big brother! I miss you so much! Only you knew what to say with the exactly right humor to help every situation feel better. You could let me know when I was being ridiculous in such a way that I would end up laughing at myself. You did that John!! I need that NOW!!! I need that now!! I want to hear your voice! I want to hear you say my name "Beck!".<br />
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Everyday I think of things I should, could or want to tell you. I want to talk to you about our little brother who is making some bold moves now. He misses you too. We all do! I have a new home now in our home town, you would love it! I wish you could see it. In my heart I know you do but.....<br />
Our little brother is going to take a big step on his own tomorrow as I leave to go on a vacation with my son, I know he wishes he could talk to you about it, but...<br />
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The craziest part of all is we never saw this coming! I am so glad that I went on that vacation last year because I go to spend so much time with you and get so many hugs! I look back now and cherish every moment!<br />
I think I will miss you as long as I am alive! I am not sure how this gets better. People say its gets better with time, maybe it does but I do not see it!<br />
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I will love you for the rest of my life until I see you again in eternity.<br />
Your sisterBeckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-25524035401045841302017-02-04T23:48:00.001-05:002017-02-04T23:48:12.941-05:00CH- CH- CH- Changes2017 brings changes a new job, a new city, a new home, a house for sale. Many changes. I got a position I had wanted for a long time. It is exactly the position I went to school to do. I am loving it! What I am not loving is selling and buying a home. The position is in another state. It is great because it is back home. Yes, I get to move home!! But, all the work that comes with it is trying. At times very over whelming. Yesterday we got an offer on our home in Ohio. It was very low, so we countered. Now we are waiting. (I hate waiting!) My hubby and I went to look at a few houses today. One potential house but it still had some quirks. Do I want to live there for the rest of my life. I am not sure. So today I am a little frustrated and perplexed.<br />
You see I believe this is a God thing. I believe this is all his plan and He has the right house for us somewhere. It is my problem I do not like to wait.<br />
I also do not like to be separated from my husband. I am staying with my sister and my hubby is staying at our home in Ohio. He is in for the weekend with our dogs at his brother's house. We have very spoiled labs.<br />
So, I just needed to get all this off my chest and put it out there so I can get it out of my head.<br />
And so its here........Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-68935958744622972472016-12-31T23:15:00.001-05:002017-01-16T02:59:11.895-05:00The year 2016 am I ready for 2017??Well, it's New Year's Eve time to ring in another year. Honestly I do not remember what I was doing last year at this time, probably the something I am doing now sitting in my living room watching TV while my husband slept in our bedroom.<br />
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I am hesitant about this next year; actually I am a little scared. You see last year I looked to the new year as new beginning, a bright future with a blank slate. In 2015, I lost a treasured uncle in the spring and then in September I lost my cousin who was in his 40's. So the thought of a new fresh year was enlightening. I graduated with my Master's degree in January and got a position where I could use my education it was very exciting. Shortly after I started my job, my daughter had some issues which turned out to be a bit scary. (these are her issues I will not talk about them here.) I lost another cousin who happened to be the brother of the cousin I had lost just nine months before, he was in his early 40's and died of a drug overdose. His dad my uncle had lost both of his children, it was heartbreaking. A few months later my niece suffered a heart attack and almost lost her life, but she pulled through. She started a fight that would last months. She had her ups and downs but we considered her a miracle.<br />
In July we went on vacation with my sister her family, my brother John and his family, and my mom. My other sister joined us there. It was a wonderful time. I had not seen my brother for 2 years; we laughed, we hugged, we laughed and hugged some more. The best part of the whole vacation was spending time with my brother!<br />
In October we lost my uncle, the father of the two cousins who had just died. But, my world stopped the morning of October 17; my phone rang at 5am. It was my sister calling. I thought about not answering but instead I answered. She told me our dear brother had a heart attack! He was in an ambulance headed to the hospital but it did not look good! All I really remember after that is screaming "O my God!" several times. My husband came into the room and asked what happened and I told him through my tears! Less than an hour later I got the news my dear wonderful, loving brother had died. He was 41! How could this happen!!!! We all headed to Maine to be with my brother's family and my mom. It was awful and great all at the same time. It was awful because he was not there! He was treasured by every one of us! you see in a big family there are aways fights and squabbles between this sibling and that one. But John, did not have that with any of us! All he wanted was for our family to pull together. Be a family, now we were all at his house that he treasured where he wanted us all to come and spend time with him and he was not there!!! It just did and still does not seem fair!!!! After a week were all supposed to return to our normal lives. Normal lives? Our lives will never be normal again, because our brother John, my mom's baby, my sister in law's soul mate, my nephew and nieces dad would not be in our lives any more.<br />
We all suffered through our daily lives without him trying to be normal.<br />
Even my niece who was fighting to get her health back, was devastated about the loss. I talked to her frequently when she was feeling down and defeated to give her hope to continue her fight. Her fight ended on December 23! Two days before Christmas! Another early am phone call this one at 1:30 am was my other niece her sister telling me Sam had passed away! It was 2 days before Christmas!!!!<br />
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Now it's New Year's Eve and we are looking at another year. How do I feel about that. I am terrified! My husband has the flu right now with a fever and it scares me to death! I know it is an irrational fear, after all it is just the flu and his fever has broken he is feeling a bit better. But yet, I am still terrified! We have another brother who has the same gene pool as my brother John. I am scared that he will suffer the same fate! Another niece is having problems with her health, I am scared, terrified about that. I am so afraid that we will loose someone else this year.<br />
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I am a Christian women, I trust God and know He has a plan for my life. I also know I could not make it through one day of this year and the years to come without Him. Most days I can put aside my fear and rest in His mercy. But then there are days like today, when I am afraid of everything. Days like today when I want to hide in my bed away from the world, these are exactly the days I NEED to get out of bed and move on. The world gets scarier and scarier every day. I realize I can give up and give into the fear or I can move on and live the life the Lord has planned for me no matter what happens. Am I ready for this? I really do not know.......It is a daily journey......<br />
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Hopefully tomorrow will not only bring a new year but a new hope. You see I will always as long as I live miss my brother and my niece but I know they are celebrating with Him this year! My brother with our beloved Nana and Pap, his dad and other family members. My niece with her daughter, Heather, she lost years ago, her dad and my brother!<br />
<br />Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-11710349183583865602016-10-19T06:28:00.000-04:002016-10-20T23:39:32.000-04:00Lost and Heartbroken.....wondering why and how this could happenWe lost our brother on Monday, he was only 41. Our hearts are broken, and we can't stop crying. He was an awesome guy, who loved his family!<br />
I was the oldest of 4 sisters, and when he was born I was 13 years old. He was the first boy. I thought it was awesome for my mom to have a baby when I was 13 year old; the fact that the new baby was a boy made it even better!<br />
My wonderful brother was always a joy to our lives. He always made us laugh, because he was a jokester from the beginning.<br />
From a very early age John had ways to make everyone laugh; after all he had a captive audience of four sisters who just adored him. Eleven months and eleven days after he was born he would be joined by our youngest brother. After the youngest was born, we became a family of six children born to my mom. None of us were bothered by the fact that we had different fathers, we were siblings and we adored each other. We were Family!<br />
As John grew he became the big brother, even though all his sister were older than him. He loved taking on the role of big brother. I often called him my little-big brother. I remember an incident when he was just a teenager. My boyfriend at the time, who is now my husband, bought me a small golden cross with a chip of diamond in it. When my brother, John, saw it he told me there was a diamond in it, so my husband must have spent a lot of money on it; therfore I should make sure I took care of it.<br />
Recently my daughter has been going through a bad divorce; at one point we thought we may have to get her and her boys away quickly to keep them safe. MY brother said they should come to be with him, because he would make sure they were taken care of. He even offered to go out to the west coast with my husband when he went to my daughters side for the first part of the divorce hearings.<br />
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He met his wife, my dear sister in law, when he was a teenager befriending her first. The he proved the kind of man he was when they became a couple, because she was pregnant with my nephew. John stepped in and took over the role of husband and dad from the moment they became a couple. He became my nephews dad even though he was not his biological father, because that did't matter with him. He was his father in every other sense of the word. My nephew is in college now and a brilliant young man. My brother and his wife also have two beautiful daughters. He was a terrific dad, husband, brother, and son!<br />
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John was also a prankster and loved to play pranks on all of us. There were many pranks over the years. I remember a family vacation when we all went to bed he lined all the door knobs with peanut butter. He also put plastic cups of water on the ceiling fan. We all saw them there, and told him about it. The problem was we did not move the cups, so when no one was paying attention, he silently turned on the fan. As a result he made it rain in the room causing all of us scream. He laughed so hard.<br />
He loved food and cooking. He often showed his love for food by cooking for everyone; then he would post his masterpieces on Facebook.<br />
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He gave the world's best hugs! He could engulf you in his arms, and hold on to you so you felt totally loved in his arms. I could really use one of those hugs right now!<br />
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That was our brother. He loved us all so much, and all he wanted was for everyone to come to Maine. That way we would all be together. He bought a huge house so everyone could fit in it when we visited. The house he bought also had a separate house for our mom right next door.<br />
The biggest regret we will all carry with us, is we were too late coming to his home. We are all here now, in John's house, where we can see his touches in every room, but he is not here with us.<br />
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We are now and forever will be heart broken! We love you John Laurence Taylor III. You will always and forever be our little-big brother! We are so sad, because you will not be in our world any more. We look forward to seeing you again some day, but as long as we are in this world, we'll be missing you!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-38014862547500466792016-09-29T02:04:00.001-04:002016-09-29T02:04:17.039-04:00Life moves on and things change....some times great sometimes not so great<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">It's been kind of hard to keep up here and then I forgot how to log into the account which makes it even harder. I can't remember when I posted last. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">But the last year has brought a lot of change in our family. I had a surgery lost 95 pounds was cured of diabetes; Praise the Lord! That is one of the wonderful things that has happened. I graduated with my Master's degree in nursing, I recently we had a new addition to our family a new grandson! All wonderful! The not so wonderful a divorce in the family. That is not easy or wonderful at all.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">As the mom and Memaw watching the ones you love suffer through this is not great at all. As I write this I am with those family members. My grandsons are watching some videos on the computer and my daughter is here too. The past year for them has not been easy at all. This divorce has been ugly and painful for all. It should all be over this week, hopefully. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">I am not writing today to go over any details or put any of their business out there. I am writing as a mom and Memaw watching. It's really hard! I see my daughter broken and hurting, that is terribly hard to watch. She was always such a strong person. Now she is trying to find that strength again. I can't do anything to help in the process; I am helpless. That is not a fun place for a mom to be when their child is hurting. I come to visit to help with that process and I get emotional which does not help. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">I see my grandsons crying because of lies they were told; it is hard. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">Tonight, I getting ready to go back home across the country from my daughter and her sons. I am sad. It helps me to know she has a family of friends here. I have met several of them and I am so thankful to them. They have become family to her, they provide support, comfort and laughter to her life and the to the boys.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">I just have to end by giving praise to the Lord for everything!</span>Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-80258569599282252652016-07-28T17:10:00.002-04:002016-07-28T17:12:34.016-04:00It has been a while<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Hello again, everyone. It has been a while since I have been here. A lot has happened in the two years I have been gone. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Last year I finally had a gastric by-pass surgery to help with my diabetes. I am happy to say "Praise the Lord!!" The surgery healed my diabetes! I stopped taking insulin days after the surgery and now a year past the surgery I have lost a total of 85 pounds. I usually fluctuate between 80-90 pounds lost. All of my labs are now normal and I have been taken off all my medications I was on before the surgery. I only take a stomach medicine. I also take a whole lot of vitamins now but no more medications!! I am blogging about that on a word press it is beckymc.wordpress.com if any one wants to check that out.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">In January I graduated with my Master's program in nursing!!! This was a chore but I completed it with a lot of prayer and tears. I am now working at a School of Nursing which has been a dream of mine for a long time. This was a major answer to prayer!!!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">My wonderful husband has retired from the steel mill after 20 years of service. In October of last year he retired; at the moment he is my house husband! I love it!! I found out we have a laundry day!!Married over 30 years and I did not know we had a laundry day!! LOL!! I just did laundry as we needed to do it! Now I have a laundry day!!! He is talking about getting a part time job but I have to say I will miss my house husband!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">We have 5 grand children now and one on the way 4 boys, one girl and one boy on the way. We are very excited about that!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am hoping to keep up a little better here now that I remember how to get back in. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am off to spend some time with my family now! I will write about it soon!!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "verdana";">I also have to update these pictures!! </span>Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-51966441826692876582014-06-29T18:39:00.000-04:002014-06-29T18:39:22.007-04:00Feelings?!Feelings, we all have them. Some a little more than others. Some are said to wear their heart on their sleeve so they get their feelings hurt a little easier. Some make people think they are tough as nails but in truth they have them too. Me, I do have them! I have always been an emotional person, but now it seems it is in OVER DRIVE! Is this menopause? Or just me moving into the next phase of my life where someone can hurt my feelings by saying a few simple words? Am I really this sensitive? Have I always been this way and now I am just noticing more? I don't think I have always been this way. I am told and know women get more emotional at times. Well, I don't want to be this emotional any more.<br />
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Who has time to have a break down, I sure don't. as you can see from my last post I have had Bells Palsy recently maybe that affected my feelings. I recently had an argument with my sister also maybe that affected my feelings. My uncle who had cancer passed away and i went to a memorial service for him, I know that affected my feelings. There are times when nothing in particular is going on just my daily life and something strikes me and I get emotional. That's the things I am talking about not the illness, the fight with family or loosing of a loved one. The thing that means really nothing at all that affects you like you were hit with a ton of bricks that is what I am talking about.<br />
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How do we handle this?? Me, I have mini melt downs when no one is looking. Yeah, I cry at night when no one is looking or I write a blog like this to get it out there. There are times when I just can't hold it back and cry at the stupid commercial or when my favorite soap character cries! Yes, I am that emotional person and I guess I do wear my feelings on my sleeve....<br />
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But that is me! Slobbery wet eyes and all!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-16610989741442398512014-05-17T20:05:00.001-04:002014-05-17T20:05:19.407-04:00Bells PalsyBells Palsy a very scary thing! I woke up one morning, let the dogs out, got my clothes out for the day, went to the door to let the dogs back in. I tried to whistle and I could not. It was early and I was tired so I just let them in and got a shower and started to get ready for work. As I was standing in front of the mirror brushing my teeth I noticed the tooth paste and water drooling out of the right side of my mouth! My whole face on the right side looked like it was drooping! I panicked! I called the doctor, the rest of my right side was good! The doctor told me to GET TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM! I MAY BE HAVING A STROKE!! then I really panicked! I called my husband who was getting off of the night shift to tell him and he told me he was on his way home. I sat in my living room with my mind going crazy if I was having a stroke should I not feel something else on my right side? would it start any minute? I was afraid to get out of the chair for fear I would find I could not walk and fall to the floor!<br />
My hubby got home and took me to the ER. they took me right back. Checked me all over and said I had Bells Palsy.<br />
Praise the Lord, I thought I am not having a stroke! I was given anti viral medication, acyclovir to take 5 times a day for 5 days and prenisone. I was also told I must protect my eye because it can not blink therefore it will not be able to keep moist, so add drops and tape shut at night with a night ointment. I was told Bells Palsy was caused mostly by a virus, they thought was the same virus that causes chicken pox. They also told me it would get worse before it got better. That was 10 days ago. I still have no activity in the right side of my face. Every once in a while I feel pins and needles or some pain, like pressure around my cheek bones or right ear.<br />
Most days I am good but today I am having a down day. It happens! I find myself trying to smile every time I walk past a mirror and only half of my face smiles back at me! I am told and have done research that says this can last a few weeks to a few months, only rare cases last forever. Forever! That is very scary! I am finding out how vain I really am. I never really thought I was pretty but at least I could smile! Just to give a a glimpse of what it is like imagine you went to the dentist and got Novocaine in the side of your face and it is lasting for weeks! that is kinda it.<br />
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O well I am going to go for now. I will be back later, and maybe I will be able to smile!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-29253351084936275312014-04-18T20:25:00.001-04:002014-04-18T20:25:27.056-04:00Blessings on this Good FridayI do not always look at the blessings in my life or what God has done for me in my life. So today I want to do that. First and foremost the biggest blessing I have ever received is the love of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ on this Good Friday I can not forget what He has done for me! He suffered in a brutal and savage way for me. he knew exactly who I was and that I would need Him to be MY savior! You see because all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. All meaning me! So He died in my place that I may live with Him in heaven eternally. That my friend is a beautiful thing and a true blessing!<br />
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Two more blessings for me recently!<br />
1. I got a job close to my daughter for a while! For 6 weeks I was able to be Memaw everyday! I could see my daughter and her husband but better yet I could spend time with my grand sons! It was wonderful! I had been feeling down because of the job situation and because I had not had the money to go see them. It was more than a year since I had sent time with them (excluding my daughter surprise visit for me a few weeks before which she and her family came for a week!) (that only made me miss them more!) So you get it I was feeling down. The blessing is what I want to talk about. I spent days at the park with the boys, we went to movies, we went shopping at the mall, we went to the Build a Bear Factory(their parents bought the bears, actually Remy got a smurf but I got to have the fun with them). It was awesome!!! I babysat them, they spent the night at my apartment and we watched movies! Did I say it was awesome! It was! It was over way too fast which leads me to my second blessing.<br />
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2. I got home on a Sunday night very late about almost two weeks ago now. I got an email before I left Oregon about a job fair at a local Ohio (home) company. They needed nurses to be case managers and many other areas. I got home Sunday night/ Monday morning the job fair was on Thursday. I went, why not I did need a local job. I had two interviews that day as the managers went over my resume. They called this week to offer me a job with wonderful benefits as case manager with Molina Health Care. They will train me for 6 weeks to help me be the best at the position and already talked to me about the possibility of moving up in the company once I complete my degree. You see I was doubting myself when I got home did I have to travel around the country alone? Did I want to? (I would have had to if nothing local came about). And it did.<br />
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I know some maybe thinking God does not have time for your problems and down moods but I am telling you He does. He absolutely cares for and loves me! Enough to die for me and<br />
He cares about you too! Enough to die for you!<br />
I trust Him with every aspect of my life.<br />
How about you?<br />
<br />Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-44943418824996258112014-03-31T17:44:00.000-04:002014-03-31T17:44:06.572-04:00Sometimes I just don't feel it!I have been going through this funk for a while now with working here and there the small blows to my self esteem when one does not work out the way it is supposed to. My assignment here is over now and I am about to head back home to Ohio. But, with that being said. I am not sure what the next step is. I am 53 years old and I am looking for a job yet, again! All of these ups and downs make a girl feel blue! I am used to working taking care of people and my family. My family has grown up and moved away. Now, taking care of patients is not happening either, unless I fight for a new job every few months and move on and on and on from here to there all alone when not at work. Why? I do not understand WHY? I am tired! I am tired of the emotional roller coaster. I am tired of fighting for everything and it only lasts for a few weeks or months. I am tired of feeling this way like everyone is against me and I did something wrong. I am tired!
I know in my heart God has a plan for me but I am so tired! Where do I go next? What happens next? I am tired of thinking about next! I just want to work, pay my bills and think about today like I am supposed to be doing!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-74177103979450761452014-03-22T05:48:00.000-04:002014-03-22T05:48:38.581-04:00I want to talk about a great manI want to talk about a great man. But I have to begin at the beginning. When I was about 11 my parents seperated and divorced. This is common knowledge if you know and have read my blog. As many of you know this was a tough time for me. My dad was always present and there in my life but it seemed as if his family divorced us. We really never felt like family except from a few treasured people in his family. One of them was my Uncle Terry. As far back as I can remember he was always around. He made an effort to spend time with us an and made us feel loved. He is my sister's God Father and I remeber one year when she was still a baby he bought her a stuffed Easter Bunny that took up a whole chair she looked lost sitting on the stuffed bunny's lap.
When my parents seperated and then divorced it almost like he did not want us to feel bad so he did nice things for us like taking the family to the amuzement park and spending the day at the park with us. When my mom married my step dad things really did not change because he was my step dad's best friend. So that just got us more time at his house or to spend with him.
As it usually happens life goes on and people grow up, get married and move away. I did. So I got caught up in MY life and did not spend much time with him. He had some family issues of his own and when his marrige broke up he became a hermit almost. I remember seeing him a few years ago when my grandmother died sitting outside talking with him. He said I did not go anywhere I am in the same house even have the same phone number, which amazingly I remembered at the time. I can hear the sound of his voice talking to me now when I remember back.
I found out today this great man is on hospice. He has cancer. There is no need to do a biopsy because it it everywhere and too far gone to do anything. My pray for him is that he does not suffer, he does not deserve it. My hope is that I get a chance to say goodbye and let him know how he made a difference in my life. But I will not be back by home until this assignemt is over so if God takes him I want the world to know what a great man he was and still is!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-59782474246224652272014-03-15T18:32:00.001-04:002014-03-15T18:32:49.035-04:00I am here Work and Fun have begunWell, I am on the west coast, in Oregon actually. I have an apartment that is about an hour away from my daughter but right up the street from the hospital. My little dog Ollie came with me. Ollie was having a rough time so I had to hook him up with a local vet, they are a true blessing! I am working the night shift and Ollie was having some separation anxiety when I was not here and he was alone. Apparently one night he barked all night, I came home to a nasty note on my front door from an anonymous neighbor saying they turned me in to the apartment complex, the neighborhood watch and if it happened again would turn me into the ASPCA! Crazy, I know! I have no idea who it was but I had a bit of a mental breakdown trying to figure out what I was going to do. I started praying and asking God to handle the situation because I did not know what to do and I was led to the Happy Valley Vet Clinic. I actually was led there! I went to the closest vet to me up the street. They were completely booked, they called another vet clinic and they were booked then they called Happy Valley who said come right up! It is about 10 minutes from the apartment and specialize in separation anxiety! They were so nice. At first they made a plan with medication and other things for him. They also have a kennel on the premise. They usually charge $25 a night to board but since Ollie would be coming at night and picked up in the morning kind of like doggie day care but at night I only had to pay $8 a night! They are wonderful with him! I am Praising the Lord! He looks out for me and even for my dog!<br />
Work is going well. I am now working as a nurse on a cancer floor! Which is where I want to be! I will be here until the end of May. So I have a few months that I get to spend my days off with my grandchildren and my daughter. I think it is a win win!! <br />
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Hope you all are well!!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-44218524013930304462014-02-14T12:50:00.000-05:002014-02-14T12:50:18.133-05:00All the busy work is doneSo I have come to place where all the busy work for this travel job is done. I have taken 5 tests, signed numerous papers, been poked and prodded for physical exams, drug tests and TB test and now it is time. On Tuesday I will leave the Ohio area and head west close to where my daughter lives to work as a travel nurse in a hospital for 13 weeks. I am excited, but more excited about spending time with my daughter and her family. The company will set me up in my own apartment and even reimburse me for a rental car. So the adventure begins next week!<br />
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Funny thing happened this morning, though. I got a call from a local cancer center to interview for a job I applied for about a month ago! Today, after all the stuff I have done for this travel job! So, I told them I was about to go on a travel assignment and how long the assignment was. They asked me if I still wanted to interview? Interesting, I thought! SO I set up an interview for Monday morning. Who knows, maybe if they like me and want me they will offer something for when this travel assignment is completed. I am for sure not going to walk away from a sure thing job for a maybe job. Been there done that too many times to mention and learned from my mistakes. SO I will keep you posted on how that goes and update you on my travels or whatever is on my mind!<br />
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Until then.....Happy Valentines Day to everyone......and I will write again soon..... Busy, busy, busy, much to do before I go Tuesday!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-38517464504025302022014-02-08T19:13:00.001-05:002014-02-08T19:13:11.878-05:00Months have passed and Change has happened againIt has been months again since I have written what is on my mind. I have not been idle and I have been having thoughts just no time to write them down. Once again I found myself in a job that took up all my time! I tried for months to get into a hospital or get a new job but the market is not that great right now even for nurses! I know what you are thinking, Nurses can always find a job. Well, I am here to tell you times have changed! Even nurses are having trouble finding decent jobs.<br />
I am still in the process of working on my Master's degree in nursing hoping that will help me land full time employment but at the moment I have decided to take to travel nursing. What is that you may ask? Well, when hospitals around the country need nurses, some places are still in shortage mode but not here that's for sure, they look to agencies that have nurses willing to travel and offer contracts. The contracts start at 12-13 weeks and can be more. For the contracted period of time the nurse travels to where the job need is and works a shift they have contracted them to work. The agency pays for the housing of the nurse while they are on assignment and some other perks also. But the nurse has to travel and keep the license for the state they are traveling to.<br />
That is my next adventure, a travel nurse until I get my degree or longer if it works well. Me and Ollie, my little dog will travel to assignments and stay until the contract is over, then come home. My hubby and his dog, Belle will be here at home. I know what you are saying now, you are going to leave your husband? No, quite the contrary, he will come visit in the middle of the assignment when he can (you see his job is changing too working more hours getting less days off). So we would not see each other as much here either. <br />
When I was younger and looking at my life this isn't exactly what I had in mind, but then again times they are a changing aren't they? My first contract will be close to my daughter so I will be able to spend time off with her and her family. That will be nice. I will try to be more effiecient in keeping up with my posts! Until then........Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-26686882269793901842013-09-28T10:16:00.000-04:002013-09-28T10:16:23.845-04:00DIVORCE For those of you who read my blog do not be alarmed I am not getting a divorce. But, we got news last night that someone in our family may be. This is a very sore spot with me because my parents were divorced and my husband's parents were divorced. So all of the children in both families have felt the pain of not having mom and dad live together in the same house. I know some will say this is for the best and eventually everyone will be ok. Well, I am here to tell you there are scars from divorce that never go away!<br />
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I was only 11 when my mom and dad separated. I never blamed them, I always blamed myself. I must have done something to ruin my family! For the rest of my life up to this point I have tried to paste my family back together. For me the family just got bigger, I now have a wonderful step mom whom is very dear to me, two step sisters, I love as much as my three blood sisters and two half brothers whom both own pieces f my heart! I did not mention a step-father because he died some time ago. My life with my step-dad was always rocky; because I have a GREAT dad. So when this man came into my life and told me he "was now my father and I should start calling him dad." I became bitter and this set the stage for our whole relationship. Unfortunately, it also set a president because everyone who has ever been a part of my life knows my step-dad and I did not mesh. (not the best witness of Christ's love in my life) My feelings for him have hurt my mom, for that I am sorry.<br />
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Those are the kind of things that happen when a family is torn! Husband and wife may think they are not happy and just do not want to be unhappy any more. But, when there are kids involved it is way more complicated. Young girls look up to their dad's as the man they will some day marry; how can they do this when he is no longer with them or only sees them on weekends? You see in my young eyes, no matter what faults my dad had he was a prince on a white horse coming to take me away from the mean man who married my mom. This feeling only caused more chaos in our home. At the time of the divorce there were 4 of us kids, all girls. While I clung to my dad with white knuckles because I was so afraid I would loose him; my sister who was 9 got mad and fought for my mom before and after her marriage to my step-dad years later. My sister and I actually had fist fights about it; which my step-dad encouraged! He wanted us to work out our feelings and anger! All this did was cause an even bigger gap in a broken family. Dad married first; this did not bother me somehow maybe because she never attempted to become anything but who she was, dad's wife. Any discipline needed always came from dad not her so I never felt like she was trying to take mom's place. It was very different for me when mom got married a few years later. When my brothers came along there had been so many girls, us three and my step-mom's two daughters, that we were delighted to have some brother's. We spoiled them rotten! I mean rotten!! But we were not a family any more just a bunch of people who had some bonds. There was no love between mom and dad, dad and step-dad, or mom and step-mom which made me feel broken. Why couldn't I have what every one else had, a family? There must be something wrong with me!<br />
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Those who have not been through this from a child's point of view have no idea the damage it can cause. Family is a sense of security for children. There is mom and dad and we can work it out together. Children feel this even at young ages, believe me I know! When the family is broken the CHILD is broken! SO I have a plea to any family with children and there is no abuse taking place PLEASE think about the children before you make any decisions about separation or divorce! I am here to tell you damage done to a child from divorce is something they carry with them FOREVER! Even when they are older and should be wiser; there will always be a place in them where the child is crying for the family they never had.<br />
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For those of you wondering my family has come a long way in the past 40 years. I am married to a wonderful man who has been my best friend and protector for over thirty years. I have grown twins who now have families of their own and are doing well. Most of my sister's are happily married with children, one of my brothers is married with a family the other also has a family with his girlfriend, they are not married; some still have issues, that's just the truth! But the Lord has done a wonderful thing! He answered a prayer from an 11 year old girl sitting on the attic stairs and has made us all a family! We still have our ups downs ( there are 8 of us siblings with varying opinions). But when push comes to shove we are all a family! A fact made very evident a few months ago when my dad had a heart attack and needed open heart surgery emergently and we ALL came together in the hospital, on the phone and on the internet; mom, step-mom, sisters, step-sisters, and half brothers all together praying and waiting for the word that dad would be ok. He did miraculous! Praise the LORD!! He mended a man and showed the world around us our mended family!!<br />
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Not every family separated has a wonderful ending like ours! Please think hard before you make the choice to separate or divorce when children are involved!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-27879185197796312122013-09-12T19:31:00.000-04:002013-09-12T19:31:10.914-04:00I am blessedI want to take this opportunity and write a blog about how I feel about my daughter in law. I tried this once for my son in law but it was too mushy, so I will just keep repeating that he is my favorite son in law even though I only have one. It could be bad if he was not my favorite!<br />
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So my dear Elise this is for you! I want the world to know how blessed I am that my son chose you to be his wife! I love you for many reason, here are only a few.<br />
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1. I love the way you love my son! He can be kinda grumpy and lazy sometimes, but you love him anyway. I love it when you laugh at him when he is grumpy and making the grumpy face! You are patient and loving with him and give him the gentle nudge (shove) he needs sometimes to move him into the next step of his life journey. I love that you are there to take care him, and make sure he takes care of himself. He needed a partner like you! I am so blessed he found you!<br />
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2. I love your personality. I love that you are Snow White in the field with the animals( I can totally picture you in the dress singing to the birds and squirrels!) and so gentle and caring. But when my son or grandsons need a stern voice you can do that too with love. I love that about you.<br />
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3. I love your simple style! I think you are a wonderful home designer and would love for you to design my home! You have a knack of putting things together and they work! I love coming to visit and seeing the latest project! The living room and dining room look great!! Can't wait to se how you do the rest of the house!<br />
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4. I love the way you raise the boys with love, fun and sternness at the same time. They can be the boys they are but when its time for discipline you do that too and it makes them think about the act they are disciplined for but they know you love them and can dance with you in the living room!<br />
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5. Finally, for today, I love your faith in God! I love that you guide your family in Christ and teach the boys about the Lord. I love that we can all sit and discuss a Bible study or controversial topic with a Biblical perspective!<br />
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My darling daughter in law I could go on and on about how you have blessed my family and my son; but I will end for now. Maybe to write more at a later date, who knows? What I really want to say is I love you and am very glad you are part of my family and I thank God for leading you to my son!<br />
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All my love<br />
BeckyBeckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-14672185691186271692013-09-07T06:41:00.002-04:002013-09-07T06:41:25.923-04:00If it is the Lord's will...when a door closes a window will openI know this is true! I see it all the time. I just choose not to see it sometimes. Well, today I am choosing to see God's will for me! As you may know I am a nurse and have been in school working on my Master's Degree in Nursing Education and Informatics. I started a job in March that took up most all of my time. Because of this my grades dropped and I had to take a break from school. I was saddened by this but felt it was best until things either settled down or I got a new job. The latter happened. So I attempted to go back to school last week. I was told by the school that because my grades dropped below the expected grade for the last class I took, I needed to pay for that class before I could start back. Money is an issue for most everyone and it is for us too. This was not a planned expense so I did not have the money and would have to save to get it; which would set me back however long it took to save the amount. Although this amount of money was not substantial it would take a few months to save it. There always seems to be something that happens where money is concerned and now my first paycheck from my new job was lost so I am waiting for another one to be issued. I was upset and could not hold back tears because this is where I feel my career is headed in the future. <br />
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I pouted! I cried! and then I prayed. (yes, I pouted and cried before turning to God because I do that.) As I prayed I told God I wanted to follow the plan for my life and if this was not the plan I could handle it. I said it. I prayed it out loud, but did I really mean it? I do not know. The great thing is the decision was in God's CAPABLE hands. <br />
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An amazing thing happened yesterday. I got a check in the mail! Only it was not from my work it was from the school! I called them to make sure it was for me and it was correct! IT IS! The check gives me enough money to pay for the class to get back into the program and more!<br />
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I do not know why God continues to amaze me when prayers are answered. After all he tells me in His word that He loves me! (John 3:16) Yet when He answers my prayers I am surprised. This is the same God that created the universe! He is amazing! Yet, I doubt. <br />
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I can not say this will be an epiphany in my life and I will never doubt again. I am human. I am me, therefore I will doubt, whine, pout and cry. But God is All powerful! And He loves me enough to die for me even when I do not deserve it!<br />
Thank You Lord for continuing to love me even when I am a spoiled brat!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-42435469923064039802013-08-29T21:27:00.001-04:002013-08-29T21:27:25.174-04:00I am not Just a Nurse!I read a blog yesterday that made me want to say I am not Just a Nurse. In fact that was the title of it. SO I thought I would do my own blog about my career, what I think about being Just a Nurse.<br />
I have been a nurse for 17 years. Most of which I have spent as a oncology or cancer nurse. So here goes!<br />
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Being a nurse is being someone who spends holidays and weekends while most other people are spending time with their families I have been with patients. Patients who needed me. What did they need me for you may ask. Well, they needed me to stand by their sides after the doctor gave them the news that their cancer was terminal. The treatments and medicines that were making them feel sick and taking all their energy did not work. They needed me to help their families now that they were tired of fighting this hard fight and stand beside them when they told them. They needed me to explain the new chemo or medication in English because the doctor told them this was the only way and they did not understand what he or she was saying. They needed me to make sure they were taken care of after that surgery make sure they got better enough to spend the next holiday with their family, because it may be the last time. They needed me to change the dressing on the wound from the surgery, pack it with gauze because it would not heal on its own so it was re-opened and needed to be packed and cleaned twice a day for how ever long it takes to heal. They needed me to clear their airway that was made in their neck, called a trach, because they could not breath without it and it fills up with mucous often they can not do it them selves and neither could their families. They needed me to be the one who took care of them while they had to lay flat for three days because radiation pellets and the apparatus to hold them were inserted into their body. They needed me to administer the chemo therapy that would kill the cancer and make sure it did not kill them in the process. They needed me to follow all the blood test and x-ray, CT and MRI reports and explain in English to them and alert the doctor when they needed more attention.<br />
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I am not by any way downgrading what doctors do; but their work is different from mine. Mine is to know how a patient feels and responds to a treatment. To report the side effects, symptoms and know how to take care of them and when to let the doctor know. Which medication to give to help them feel better and stop it. Mine is to sit by the bedside and hold the hand of the patient who has fought the hard fight and now could not fight any more. Mine is to help them stay as comfortable as I possibly can until their last breath. <br />
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I am an advocate for the patient. I am a compassionate ear. I am a healing touch. I am a NURSE, not just a nurse I am THE NURSE!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-60826887288669969542013-08-05T00:33:00.003-04:002013-08-05T00:33:51.412-04:00Wow it has been forever since I have been hereHello, out there! It has been forever since I have been here. Six months almost, I think. That is when I took the job I am now about to quit. The job consumed my life so much that I did not have time to live my life. I spent every waking hour and some sleeping hours on the job. I struggled with decision to move on to another job since I have had such a hard time finding a full time job, but in the end I made the decision. It was easy once I focused on the true reason for life to follow the path the Lord has laid out for me and except His GRACE for my life. So when I was offered a position with Grace Hospice, I took it! I am a little scared to move into yet a new job but know this is where God wants me now. I am not sure what the future brings but I know the Lord is with me and will see me through!<br />
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I will return soon......much sooner than six months! ;) Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-44212602668620064182013-05-29T22:28:00.003-04:002013-05-29T22:28:48.963-04:00Can't believe I made it to Hodge Podge!!!<a border="0" href="http://joyce-fromthissideofthepond.blogspot.com/" target="_blank"><img src="http://i874.photobucket.com/albums/ab305/SincerelyShannon-designs/Blog%20Buttons/Hodgepodgebutton.jpg" /></a><br />
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1. What question do you often ask yourself?<br />
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I am not sure...I ask my self a bunch of questions...at this point I ask what do I do next?<br />
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2. Do you grow roses? What's your favorite color of rose? Ever been given a dozen roses? Where was the prettiest rose or rose garden you remember seeing?<br />
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No, I do not grow roses but would love to. I love red roses. I got a dozen of peach roses once at work my hubby sent them to me to surprise me....I was really surprised because he had never done that before.<br />
The prettiest rose garden was in my grandmother's back yard every year in June the yard was full of red roses<br />
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3. Do you read the freshness dates on grocery store products? Will you use eggs past their 'use by' date? Take medication that's expired? Buy a dented can?<br />
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Actually I do check the dates. I am a stickler on expired things. I remember opening a bottle of salad dressing at the same grandmother from above it was expired by 3 years!!! It erupted like a volcano when we opened the top!<br />
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4. Should athletes be role models?<br />
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No I do not think athletes should be role models and while we are talking athletes I think they get paid WAY too much!! I think role models should be firemen and women, police men and women and soliders!<br />
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5. Edmund Hillary of New Zealand and Tenzing Norgay of Nepal became the first explorers to reach the top of Mt. Everest on this date (May 29) back in 1953. What's something you hope to achieve in your lifetime?<br />
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I want to get my Master's degree. I had to stop and take a leave of absence because of my new job....I want to finish it.<br />
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6. What would you do if you had twenty acres of land and the money to develop it any way you choose?<br />
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My hubby loves the woods we would probably clear two acres in the middle for our home and keep the rest wooded.<br />
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7. If I invite you to a party with a 7 PM start time, what time will I actually see you there?<br />
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i think since I am always late i would probably get there about 8 pm.<br />
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My new job has really sucked up my time...so much that I had to take a leave of absence from school as I said above. It has me wondering if this is really what I want. Yesterday out of the blue I got a call from a hospital I taught at for the college clinicals. they wanted to let me know they had two positions wanted to know if I was interestedBeckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-11453866639145070932013-05-27T22:16:00.001-04:002013-05-27T22:16:16.504-04:00Answers to Prayers are not always easyThere is something you want, something you need. You pray for it. Then your prayers are answered. Is it easy street from then on? I am here to tell you NO easy street is not always the way. I was unemployed as many of you know. I prayed for a job. A job came along. Then quickly after the job new opportunities in the job came and I prayed. I got the position offered. Now the really hard work comes and I am finding out I can not do this alone. Prayers got me this job and prayers will help me be the best I can be in this job! Especially when it gets hard and believe me it is right now.<br />
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I will ask all of those who follow this little blog please say a prayer for me to be able t do this job to the best of my ability and then let God take over and go that extra mile.Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-11954769681525295362013-05-26T21:01:00.003-04:002013-05-26T21:01:41.660-04:00Emotions have no reasonIt is crazy ya know, how emotions work. You think everything is going well and then before you know it smack the emotions are going crazy. I am sad and want to cry. I am mad and want to punch something. Next I want to get in my bed cover my head and hide from the world! Then I am fine, but my stomach can't keep up with the emotional roller coaster it is upset and nasty.<br />
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It seems crazy to me. I am a rationale person in a rational and critical profession. So this period of my life called menopause is not except-able and want to scream like Archie Bunker once did to Edith "Get over it you have ten minutes" or close to that here I found the clip.<br />
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It is really crazy. You can not control the emotions from one minute to the next.Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-29646254608739234142013-05-16T19:40:00.001-04:002013-05-16T19:40:53.737-04:00Time flies and Blessings FlowHello everyone!!! Time flies when you are having fun! At least that is what they say! I have had many things going on and many blessing from those things so I thought I would share.<br />
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<li> My dad had a heart attack a few weeks ago. He had a quadruple by-pass a week ago Monday. BLESSING- He is home and doing well!! To look at him you would not know he had this surgery. He is in the best physical condition he can be in to make a complete recovery! Today he met with the doctors and he is very good! Does not have to see the surgeon again and return for the cardiologist is 1 year!!!</li>
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<li> As I said in the previous post for Hodge Podge. I did get a job. It is crazy how it happened. I thought I was looking for a new church. I went to a few churches closer to my home. One of the churches had a flyer for a hospice company. I went to the web site and filled out the application for a hospice case manager and forgot about it. About a month later I got a call for an interview and got the job. I started working and after two weeks I was asked to interview for the Clinical Director of Hospice for this office. I got that job too! All this is strictly God's plan! It was in His hands from the beginning. It all revolved around our church. We have since gone back to our original church.</li>
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<li>My sister graduated from the University of Pittsburgh and passed her boards to be a Certified Nurse Anesthetist. Two hard years of work. Praise the Lord!! and she has a job at UPMC Mercy Hospital!</li>
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The new job has me running all over the place and working many hours right now because we are just starting out in the central region of Ohio. Some days I start early and don't get home until very late which was making a big stress on my school work for my Master's Degree in Nursing. So I had to make a hard decision to take a leave of absence for a few months. Since I have made that decision the stress is still there but not as intense with school too If I am tired I can fall into bed and not worry about meeting school deadlines. At least for a few months!</div>
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<br />Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15214405319902944923noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4257389931464046637.post-73869192961318089872013-04-10T22:18:00.001-04:002013-04-10T22:18:50.018-04:00Hodge Podge i am here again!!!<br />
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1. Share one fun thing you did last week, while the Hodgepodge was on 'spring break'.<br />
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Well, I will do one better than that I have been off and on break for a while. What have I been doing??? STARTING A NEW JOB!!!!!! yes I got a job as a Hospice Case Manager about three weeks ago. Yesterday, I was promoted to the other job they had posted Clinical Director of Hospice!!! The second job I did not even apply for they just thought I was suited to do the job. So in three weeks I got a job and a raise!!! Is God good or what??<br />
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2. April 10th is National Sibling Day...do you have siblings, and if so are you close? Share a favorite story featuring one or all of your siblings. If you don't have siblings, did you ever wish you did?<br />
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I have 7 siblings! Kind of a your mine and ours family. 4 of us all girls with my mom and dad. After they divorced my dad married my step mom who had 2 daughters, then my mom remarried and had 2 sons. So that makes 8 all together!<br />
Gosh now you want a favorite sibling story.......Ok my brother Tom is the youngest. When he was born I was 16 years old. he was MY baby. When I moved out I would come to get him to come stay with me at my dad's house. One particular time I was babysitting him over night for my mom. he did not like to be away from mom so I told him there were bunny rabbits at my dad's house. he was about 3. He made me sit on the front porch of my dad's house for more than an hour before a rabbit came hopping out and he went to bed for the night!<br />
I might add he is still a spoiled brat now at 30 something!<br />
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3. Is it important to you to 'buy American'? Why or why not? How much of an effort do you make to 'buy American'? If you're not American, insert your own country in the blank.<br />
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I think it is important to buy American. With that being said I do not own an American car. I have a Subaru. But in my defence they are built to last better. Even though some cars are foreign in design there are factories in America where they are built!<br />
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4. Besides The Bible, what book has impacted your spirituality in some way?<br />
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When I first became a Christian about 30 years ago. I was given a book called the Survival Kit for Christians. It taught me how to read the Bible, study it, memorize verses and help me to make the Bible a part of my daily life.<br />
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5. April showers bring May flowers or so the saying goes. Do you find rainy days calming or depressing? When were you last caught in a rainstorm? What's blooming in your neck of the woods today?<br />
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Rainy days do not bother me unless I am on the west coast and it rains FOREVER. I do love the sunshine but know we need the rain. I love the smell after the rain. (I am one of those weird people who associate smell with things)<br />
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6. What's your favorite yellow food?<br />
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Egg yoke<br />
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7. April is National Poetry Month...what's a poem that holds special meaning for you, and why is it special?<br />
Two particular poems hold special meaning for me cause my kids wrote them my daughter wrote The Window. It is a sad poem about a dark place looking out the window. But it is very special to me. My son also wrote his first poem. I can not remember the name because it is in Latin but it tells about the divinity of God.<br />
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8. Insert your own random thought here.<br />
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I am so excited about my new job and raise all I can do is say PRAISE THE LORD!!!!! and THANK YOU FOR ANSWERED PRAYERS!!!<br />
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