Sunday, June 22, 2008

Scared........Biopsy.......Good New?????

Last week while at work the doctor I work with tried our new ultra sound machine on me. What she found were a few nodules on my thyroid and a enlarged lymph node in my neck. She told me it needed biopsied. So Friday I went to have the biopsy and the results were BENIGN!! Here is my problem, don't get me wrong benign is good, but what do I do next. Do I have surgery on my thyroid to make for certain it is benign all the way through or do I have surgery to take out half of my thyroid? If the surgery was done I would have to be on medication for the rest of my life, but I am sure I will be on some meds for the rest of my life with the problems I have now. So what do I do??????? I have no idea what to do. Yes I do pray!!!

Saturday, June 14, 2008

My babies all grown up

Do you have grown up children? Do you know what it is like to listen to them when they are unhappy? WHat can you do besides listen? Knowing that tomorrow may be a whole different day and they may be happy again. It is the hardest thing I've every done so far in my life. When my daughter cries or is mad and upset because of something it breaks my heart. I just want to scoop up her and my grnadson and bring them back to my home so I can make it all better, but I can't becasue she is an adult. So I listen, and then I pray.

I try not to get mad at my son-in-law who is the reason why she is upset or angry, but sometimes that is not easy either. I just want to thrash him and let him him know how he is making her feel. I want to punch his dad in the face because he is usung his son. They just bought a new house and instead of helping set up his new house and making it great for HIS family ; he is at his dad's working on his dad's house. So instead of getting amd or punching someone in the face; I listen and pray. Then I spill out my feelings here for the world to see but nobody reads my blog but me so that's ok.
This is one of the first pictures of my new grandbaby!!!!!!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008


I hate math!!!! I especially hate college math because apparently college math has nothing to do with numbers or at least I haven't gotten to that part in my third week of a six week class. All I have been doing is LOGIC. I used to think I was a logical person that is until I took this class; it would appear I am completely illogical. So any one who reads this please pray for me to get through my next three weeks and at leaast pass this class. That is all I hope for right now. I think about the GPA after this calss is over and I have NO MORE MATH CLASSES!!!!!!! YAHOOOO!!!