Friday, December 25, 2009
So I am going to pray to pray for these patients that they get better and go home to spend time with their families.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
News from my life. I am on a school break now until Jan 11. That alone is like a breath of fresh air. I will finally be done with my bachelors degree some time in May. I know I want to start my masters in the fall but I am trying to decide which track to take. I have been thinking about going the education route so I can train new nurses but lately I have also been thinking about being a Nurse Practitioner. The schooling is the same, maybe a few months more for NP to be able to prescribe meds. I have also been trying to figure out where I will go. MUSC, the hospital where I work, South University the college where I go now, or lately I have been thinking about West Virginia University (I was hoping there was an online class there but there is not, so I would have to move should I go there. We have been thinking about making that move because it is closer to home but not too close.) WV has a NP of women's practice which I would love to do. Another opportunity that has come up is my boss has been talking about after getting my degree or actually once I start to work with her in management as a educator or assistant manager. (I am tempted by that one too but do not know if I would like it.)
My family is doing well my daughter is pregnant with my third grand child her second child. My son has finally graduated from college. (YEAH!!) Now he is looking for a job in a church or other job. My husband is good.
The rest of my Jerry Springer family are doing OK. They have ups and downs outbursts and fights I have decided to stay as far away from that as I can. (Considering they always call me when something goes wrong.) I am trying not to get upset about it anymore.
I will try to keep better touch here throughout the break and from now on. The next few days I will be catching up on old post.
Merry Christmas Blogging Friends!
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
I have been thinking about it because it didn't seem the same for me anymore. My kids are grown with families of their own living far away. My grandchildren will have Christmas morning and celebrate the holiday with their other grand parents and that made me sad. I stayed that way fro a while and then I started to think today. Why am I sad? Just because I can not spend one day with my kids and their families. After all they are all coming here the week after Christmas for us to celebrate my husband's 50th birthday and we will have a Christmas celebration on New Years day.
I started to think about those people who truly are away from their families for the holidays. The military who are defending our country in foreign lands, who would love to have just one day to celebrate with their families. Missionaries in foreign lands and across our nation who are doing the job they have been destined to do. Prisoners in jails across the country some deserving of their time others who do not deserve to be there wishing every day that they would be able to see their families again. The sick in the hospitals who hurt so bad because of injuries, surgeries or illnesses who only want to have one more day with the families they love. The lonely and alone who do not have anyone to have a dinner with but will spend Christmas alone in their homes or worse on the streets of this nation watching all the fun but never quit getting close to having fun themselves. Those who sit in nursing homes across the country having just another day of the same old thing hoping someone will call or come to visit them today.
For the rest of this holiday season I will not feel sorry for myself. I will not fret because my day is bad or I can not get my way. For the rest of this holiday season I chose to pray for one lost and lonely soul a day to have a good, happy and memorable Christmas day.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
During the course of our only 1 day there, we had to come back the next day so Kevin could go back to work, we talked and talked and talked. I found out she knew nothing about all the lies and threats her mom had thrown towards me in the past year and a half. In fact I learned her mom had stopped talking to her in Jan of 2009 because of a spat they had. We rekindled our friendship and vowed never to let family come between us again. We decided we are friends FIRST!!!
Although all of this happened on such a sad occasion as Rick's dad funeral, I believe this was truly the Lord at work. He knew how much I missed her and she me so He brought us back together!
God is good all the time!!!! Praise His Holy Name!!!
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Sunday, October 25, 2009
- I am healthy. I have a few aliments I need to tend to and I do take some medications but all in all I can do what I want when I want independently.
- I have a wonderful husband who is also healthy; and he loves me, and has for over 30 years.
- I have two healthy children; who have grown up to be responsible adults who know right from wrong.
- Both of my children have married good people who treat them well.
- I have two glorious grand children who are healthy and I cherish them.
- I have a nice home and a job so I do not need to worry where the mortgage payment is coming from.
- All three of my parents are healthy and able to live their lives. (three parents mom, dad, stepmom)
- I have a relationship with everyone of my brothers and sisters.
- I have a church that I love and am able to work for the Lord which I also love.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Once while we were driving i was talking about this and Kev said "wait be quiet......Nope no one is calling me." Of course I laughed until I almost peed my pants but I wonder why this feeling is so strong in my heart......Is it just menopause or God really calling me to do something?
I decided to do something so I am going to volunteer my time at the Low Country Crisis Pregnancy Center. They know I am a nurse and want to train me to counsel the young women and also use the ultrasound machine. And I have been thinking about missions a little maybe I can help that way with my church.
Monday, September 28, 2009
I am originally from Pennsylvania and what I miss the most living here is the Fall. I love the change of seasons. I love to drive along the highway and see all the vibrant colors on the side of the roads and the hill sides. I miss that here. The trees do change some but not like at home.
I know its Fall because the kids are back in school and the haloween costumes are in the stores, but it sure doesn't feel like it right now.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Until the next time. Is this what menopause is. If it is how long does it last. Should I take hormones? My doc says take over the counter stuff if I feel I need to. I have a few times for a few months at a time. Then stop and I am OK....Then it starts all over again.
I have no real reason to cry. I love my husband, he loves me. I have a nice home and we both have jobs. Yet sometimes I do just feel the need to cry.
Friday, September 25, 2009
I remember our first kiss. It was about 2 weeks after the first date. We were out with friends playing a drinking game ( I did say earlier that we were teenagers right?). The game was a board game called pass out. Our turn he picked a card it said....Kiss your partner, Light up (I smoked at the time), or take a drink. We discussed what we should do for a minute or two until one of our friends said "O just shut up and kiss her!" So he did. Romantic huh?
I knew from that first date when he held my hand that he was the one for me. I just knew in my heart that he would be my husband some day....and 4 years later we said "I do" in front of our friends and family. Our wedding was simple not a big production. We decided we wanted to get married after we moved into a house we were trying to buy at the time. Talked about it, decided yes and got married two weeks later amongst rumors that I was pregnant. (The rumors were false I had my twins 1 year and 1 month later.) We got married in a local church and had a party at our house. It was terrific.
Now 27 years later I would not change a thing. We have had ups and downs over the years. I became a Christan shortly after the twins were born and Kevin became a Christan about 14 years later. We both believe God put us together and we intend to stay together. I love him more today than I could ever have imagined back then and I think I am the luckiest girl in the world to have him. God answered my prayers through him by giving me a loving and wonderful family of my own and I am thankful to the Lord for the great gift He has given me.
Monday, September 14, 2009
My mom moved in with my grandmother about 15 years ago to take care of her after a illness. She took care of my Nan until about two years ago when my mom got sick after my son's wedding and ended up moving in with me. My grandmother wanted to be where my mom was so she and my mom moved from Pennsylvania to SC to live with me. They did so for just short of 2 years when they moved into their own place here. Then my grandmother had to have surgery on a hiatal hernia; after that she became total care. Her body was failing but her mind was still there. She could not walk and fell once or twice at their home. My mom's doctor told my mom she could no longer take care of my gram by her self. Since I have to work we talked to my gram and decided she would go to a nursing home. We got her in a place here that was beautiful! It was like a dream. They had a porch she could go out to sit on, an ice cream shop where she could get FREE ice cream for her and her visitors and many other amenities. My aunt, my mother's sister, wanted my grandmother closer to FAMILY she said so she complained enough and used a illness she has as bait for not being able to travel to get my gram back up in Pa in a nursing home facility. So my mother feeling sorry for her sister because of the health problems we thought was causing her not be able to come here to visit my grandmother mom conceded and moved my gram to PA to a state run nursing home. Yes it is exactly what it sounds like, that is all I have to say about that. Since the move back to PA my aunt in the course of moving my gram in had her sign a power of attorney, unknowingly.
That is when the tirade began. My mom and sister went to take my gram out to dinner after which my mom got a call the aunt, her sister, telling her she could only take my gram out with HER PERMISSION. I went to visit with my grandson and son and was told I was NOT ALLOWED to take my grandmother off the unit to SIT ON THE PORCH. Last week I got a call from the aunt she told me she wanted something I had that my gram had given me when she was here with me. (I did not ask for this is was GIVEN to me). She told me if I did not give it to her I would be FORBIDDEN to see my gram. I was crushed and of course agreed to anything so I could see my Nana. After talking about it to my daughter who is in law enforcement. She told me this was harassment and I should go to my local police dept and ask about phone harassment charges. I did. They stated they could not prosecute because this aunt lives in another state but they cold call her and tell her not to call me again and if she wanted anything from me in the future she should do it a legal action. That was Friday. (Mind you I am praying about this since the triad started as is my immediate family). The police called the aunt left a message for her to call back. Saturday the aunt called my mom several times mom did not answer. Yesterday the aunt left a message on my mom's voice mail that she was going on vacation and now we had to deal with her son; when I got there this week I was to call her son from the parking lot of my Nana's nursing home he would come to get the object she wanted and then He would ALLOW us to visit my Nana. This was both my mom and me. She was FORBIDDING us from seeing my grandmother until she got what she wanted! I was outraged! My mind started racing. I would go to court get visitation, she could not keep from my Nana who WANTED to see me. As I sat and pondered my actions in my mind a thought popped in my head (which I now know was from the Lord!) to do some Internet searching on elder abuse. I found out what she is doing is isolation which is abuse. I also found a site for the state of PA for elder abuse. I called my mom and started telling her what I had found. While I was reading the site to her I found a phone number which answered 24/7. Mom called. They agreed is elder abuse and THEY WILL TAKE CARE OF IT!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!! THEY SAID SHE CAN NOT KEEP US FROM SEEING MY GRAM AS LONG AS SHE WANTED TO SEE US!!!!
SO we are continuing to pray this job until completion. I am going to PA this week to see my gram Hopefully I can get in, I know I will with the Lords help!!!
Friday, September 11, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
*The first thing I have been thinking of and feeling today is I need to go see my grandmother next week. For some reason I have a very strong NEED to go see my grand mother I can not get her off my mind and I need to see her. The problem is a bunch of crazy things happening trying to distract me from going like I am missing some time from my pay check so it is about 1/2 what I usually make. It will be in my next pay I am told. Then my husband lost his wallet (again). He has been doing that quite a few times lately. My dog sitter reneged on me and I will most likely have to put Tia in a kennel for the time we are gone. But no matter what happens I still have this strong sensation that I need to see my Nana. She is 96 and I have been close with her all my life I have never gone more than a week with out talking to her.
*I had a few patients today who were motor vehicle or ATV accidents. One was a tiny 18 year old boy. Broken bones everywhere! He broke my heart especially when daddy came in to see him and he was so tired from treatments today he could not wake up. Dad was sad. It was sad!
*I want to see my brother and my nephew. I know he went back to his life but I want to see him and Tyler when I get up there. I bought Tyler a T shirt with the hospital logo on it. :)
*I will get a break from school for three whole weeks at the end of this week. I do not want to think while I am off. Sounds silly I know but with school and work I have to be on my game writing papers and taking care of patients watching for any problems. SO I decided for the next three weeks I will only think at work. Everything else besides my devotions and time with God will be filled with fiction, fun and brain rest! I might even go to the beach by my self!
*I need to find a small group to go to. I have had several choices but they do not feel right. I think I will go to one Monday night. I know the leaders and like their style. I need that spiritual accountability.
*I need to plan my husband's 50th birthday party. I decided to make it also a New Year's Eve Party. I need to get info for out of town family and get it moving.
*I think I am suffering from menopause! I have hot flashes so much I feel like I live in a hot house or is it green house any how you get the picture. I live in SC so the temps here are usually in the 80-90 range with humidity it could feel like 100 and something...with a hot flash it feels like 200 and something. How professional do I look when I am visibly sweating and it is dripping down my face when taking care of patients! I feel like I need a cold shower every couple hours!
O well folks that is all for today. I am going to bed I am tired tonight.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
But all I have to say is PRAISE THE LORD MY BROTHER IS BACK!!!!
Monday, August 31, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
My brother is a mess at times, he lives with an abusive woman who tries to control his every move. He puts up with it because of his son. It breaks my heart. Every few weeks they have a knock down drag out fight where usually my brother gets hauled away, because who could believe this man could be dominated by the small framed woman he lives with. Monday night was one of those nights. He started drinking again, that's a big problem for him. He says he wants to stand up get a job, because he is not allowed to work another woman may look at him and want him. SO he stays at home and watches my nephew while she works. He says he wants to get a job and place of his own, so he can file for custody of Tyler and be rid of all the other aggravation. I pray he does; I am so afraid I will be going to a funeral of another 30 something year old in the near future and it will be my own brother. My heart breaks when I think about it.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
I am sorry to be so negative today......Maybe I should go to bed now and wake up tomorrow with a whole new attitude....Goodnight.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
But I have been doing all this stuff for me and not listening to God as he has been calling my heart to work for Him. I have worked with youth all my Christan life but have not for the past few years. I think I am being called back to that. I am going to the youth meeting this week to check it out and I will be praying and spending quiet time with God to see if this is the work He wants me to do.
My prayer is "Lord please help me to see what You want me to do and where You want me to work for your kingdom. Please do not let me crowd my life with stuff that gets in the way of You. Thank you Lord."
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
What is it He wants me to do? What are my gifts I am to use to serve Him?
My gifts are I believe mercy, which I use every day of my life I think. My job helps me use that one too.
I love to teach. I have not done that for a while but hope to do it again in the fall with jr high girls. I would love to teach and talk to them about the Lord. I believe this is a gift the Lord has given me also.
I also love to write. I used to write short stories all the time just for myself really. My family read some of them and told me to publish them. My dad thinks I should be a writer. I have been thinking about that one lately and have decided to start another blog with my short stories when the come to mind. I know, I know that is another thing to spend time on but I believe some of the short stories can appeal to the unsaved world and who knows maybe they will think about God.
So that is what I am going to do in the next few days. I am going to start another blog with just short stories from the inside of my head and my heart. Some are autobiographical some are pure fiction but the Lord has given me this gift and this is the perfect place to use it..
I will let you know when it is started if you want to know.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
I guess I do not understand all this. We are all God's children! Black, white, yellow, red or any other color. Jesus died on the cross for ALL! Not for white man or black man FOR ALL. So why does this matter.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
So we have quiet for about a week then my brother comes to town then the rest of my family, (my mom, sister Kellie and her daughterJ'Leah, sister NMorma and her family). Atleast they are all staying in a beach house about an hour from me; I am going to stay with them for a few days. Then in August Kevin's sister and her family are coming down. So I will continue checking in from time to time and keep y'all updated as much as I can.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
I have been thinking lately about volunteering for the Red Cross. I am a nurse and I love it! I think this is the profession God made me for. So I was thinking how could I use what I love to serve the Lord. Then I thought maybe I could volunteer for the Red Cross. I could use my skills and help in times of disaster and emergency. I looked it up on line and would have to take a few classes to volunteer. I talked to my husband about it today. He said it sounded like a good idea as long as I did not overwhelm my self and not have enough time for school. I am still praying about that. .....
I have been thinking about being a good witness for Jesus. I want people to know I am a Christ follower and not scare them away. I want unbelievers to be able to socialize with me and talk to me but know I am different some how. I want to make a difference.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Today I had a very nice visit with my grandmother. We sat in the dining room because I was forbidden to take her even out to the porch (trying not to be angry about all this). We talked for over an hour and had a great number of laughs. yesterday we took the baby to see her and we will take him again tomorrow.
I'll post some pictures when I get back.
Friday, June 12, 2009
I am here in Pittsburgh mainly to see my grandmother and to bring the baby to see her. My niece is also graduating this weekend. I wanted to bring my grandmother to the graduation. I have been talking to her about it for weeks and she was excited about it. I thought I would be nice and call my aunt because she is POV now and ask permission to take my grandmother to the party. She just called me and said "NO". she said she talked to my grandmother about it and she got upset and did not want to go. (which I do not believe) She also told me she has told the nurses Nana should not be taken out on Sunday. I am crushed! I do not understand why my grandmother should suffer because me aunt has issues with me. (Issues that are all crazy and untrue) I just do not understand why someone would hurt my grandmother just to spite me.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
I am angry because hoe hurt my other brother, my mom and my sister but I still can not give up on him. More and more everyday it seems like he gets further and further away but still I hope he will become the brother I know and love so much again. Every day brings news of how he has hurt someone else. I could cry every time I think of him and sometimes do my heart is broken and I wonder what happened to "my brother" the kind hearted light spirited clown we all loved.
Monday, June 8, 2009
When and why is it that the child becomes the parent?
I have noticed in the past two years with my mom that I have become more of a parent figure to her. Actually we have had a different kind of relationship all my life. Since my parents divorce when I was 11 we have had more of a friend relationship than parent-child. Sometimes she just seems to me to be acting like an unruly teenager than a grown up responsible person.
My job is very stressful at times but I absolutely love what I do. I am an oncology nurse on a busy surgical floor. We see many patients with head and neck cancers. Over the weekend I was in charge of the unit. We tend to get attached to our patients because most of them are back and forth several times or they are there for a long time. One particular patient had a few emergencies over the weekend, three to be exact. Finally at the end of the shift yesterday we sent him to one of the units. He is OK, but it also makes me feel good that I was able to see a problem arise and act on it. The team of doctors was great too; they most always treat us nurses like part of the team. That is a big plus.
I still have one more year of school fro my bachelors in nursing. In my haste to be done with all this I thought since I did not see any more classes on my roster that I was done in June. last week I got a phone call from one of the school counselors stating I needed to pick 3 elective classes. I was shocked! I told her I was done in June and she proceeded to tell me no I had 1 more year. I am done in June but 2010 not 2009! O well there goes my summer of leisure. I will be studying just like I am now.
My daughter. My daughter and her husband had a long talk. It was good. She baffles me some times. She told me she does not know why he loves her. She can not find reason in herself for him to love her. All the darkness she but herself into as a teen must have clouded her judgement and made her not like herself. Her childhood was good at least according to her twin brother who was treated exactly the same at home as she was. I know why he loves her and try to let her know that all the time because I love her too. More than words can say. Does parenting every get easier I wonder?
Thursday, June 4, 2009
I spoke to my daughter today. She is not happy. It breaks my heart to hear her cry. My daughter as a child was a very perky little girl involved in church. Then teen age years came and she got into the goth thing, she dressed all in black, wore black makeup and nail polish before it was the thing to do. She also get into witch craft. I think she got much further into it than I ever thought she was. I was so blind when she was a teen. We butted heads all the time. She scared me sometimes with the things she said and did. Then she graduated high school and got went into the army. She met my son in law; they got married. He is so different from her. He also grew up in church and although he does not go to church professes to be a Christan. He is a cowboy at heart and at times very lazy. He will put off doing something until the very last minute and will not initiated anything new. Her and I got closer when she went into the army we used to write letters to each other all the time and now we talk every day. Sharon seemed to change once she got married. She wasn't so against God any more she even said she believed in God again. (I was elated!) From time to time I talk to her when she has had a fight with her husband and needs to talk. Then things get better again. Today when I talked to her she scared me again. She was talking about how she is not happy and she feels like she is being suffocated. She said she feels like she is loosing herself and does not know who she is. She told me my grandson is the only reason she has to live. She said she would never do anything to herself but, she has cut herself before when she was a teen and a few months ago she showed up with a big cut on her leg she could not explain.
I know she needs the Lord in her life she has so many demons she has let into her life and know she is fighting them everyday without the Lord. I pray for her all the time. I know the Lord loves her if only she knew!
Monday, June 1, 2009
- **My mom was rear ended by a drunk driver as she was minding her own business driving in my jeep up the interstate in West Virginia headed home to Pittsburgh. She had driven 11 hours and was only 2 hours away. Praise the Lord she was not hurt!! But I can not stop thinking thoughts about the driver of the vehicle that hit her. Did he see her? Was he sleeping or passed out? Did he try to run away? (He passed her and was headed off the interstate when his car quit.) Why do bad things happen to good people? I know there is no simple answer to that question and I will not truly understand it until I get to heaven but it lingers from to time.
- **Cell phones, I am addicted to mine. I have a black berry so I can keep up with my life. What did I do before cell phones and why is this phone so important to me. I think it is because my family all live so far away and with my phone I can be constantly connected to them. They can call me anytime or send me a message, picture or video. Just yesterday I got a video of my 3 yr old grandson singing "This little light of mine." It is darling and I have played it several times. I sometimes think do I love this phone because I am a control freak and want to have control of everything in my life including my family?
- **Face Book, started out as a web page several years ago for college age student to keep in touch with each other. What has bloomed now is a huge social network of people of all ages. Do these social network web pages hinder our day to day interactions with people because we are so used to being in our own little room typing and not face to face anymore?
- **Family. Family is the most important thing to me in this life. My husband, children and grand children and also my parents, brothers and sisters. My parents divorced in an ugly battle when I was 11. Both mom and dad remarried which added more sisters and brothers to our family. I remember as a little girl praying before I even knew Christ as my saviour to please fix my family. Well, He has. Mom, Dad and my Step mom are very much on friendly terms these days. In fact My dad and step mom traveled to WV with my sister to get all my moms stuff! But the devil is always trying to mess up the good the Lord has done. My youngest brother is in a bad relationship and he has a child. The women he is involved with has threatened to take his child away if he interacts with us. She has even suggested the child may not be his. SO we have no way to contact to him by phone. I however continue to send letters, cards and other stuff to him by mail so he knows I love him and will not give up on him.
I think that is enough random thoughts for now. I may post more later but for now I have school work to get to so I will stop. I hope all are having a great day and God's peace be with all of you.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
Today I completed packing my mom and all that we could fit of her stuff into my jeep so she can move back to Pittsburgh. She has lived in South Carolina for 2 years and now since my grandmother is back home mom is going back too. She cared for my grandmother for the last 16 years before she went into the nursing home. Now she is terribly lonely without my grandmother and misses her. She does not know where she will live when she gets there. She will most likely stay with one of my sisters for a while. All she knows is she can visit my grandmother everyday if she wants.. My Nana, my grandmother, is 96 years old. She asks for my mom all the time and asks where she is. So mom is going to spend time with her.
I think it is wonderful that she is going to spend time with my Nana. I will miss mom because she has been here with me for the last two years. But, I know she needs to be with my nana. I love her very much and I am proud of her.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Why am I ranting about this now.? Well it is getting warmer and more and more motorcycles will be on the road and like I said I am a nurse so I may see these patients after an accident this summer.
I will stop ranting now and I know I ill pray for all those riding this summer!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
-30 years ago I met a wonderful man in the mountains of Pennsylvania. He was the friend of my cousin's boyfriend. We have been together ever since.
-I have two wonderful children who are both good kids.
-My children were both blessed with good mates who love them.
-I am Memaw of two great grand kids
-No matter the distance between us my family is still strong and all love each other.
-God allowed us to save some money so Kevin and I could come out here and spend time with Sharon and her family.
-Kevin and I both have good jobs and although times are bad we are still working.
-We are all healthy.
-We all have a place to live.
I could go on and on. I think I will try to make at least one blessings post a week just so I can thank God for the blessings he has given me that week.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Kevin is coming tomorrow and Ethan will be so excited he has been asking for him everyday. I can't wait for him to spend time with our precious boy.
Thank you Lord Jesus, for giving me this precious little boy to love! Thank you for allowing me to come here and thank you for giving me the strength to overcome my demons to enjoy my time here. In Your precious and Holy Name . Amen!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
I feel so bad for her. She is so lonely. My step dad died almost 16 years ago and she moved in with my Nana shortly after that. She has never lived alone until now. So we are going to look on the web and try to find her a reasonable place to live back in PA so she can be close to Nana. Please pray for her she has some big bills up there with the utility companies because of my brother and will have to move into a different county to get utilities and there is also the fact that my brother lives there too and he has told her he never wanted to see her again. I know God will help her with this because I know He wants her to be happy and so do I.
I am planning a day with just me and Ethan; of course I am having a little bit of my crazy mind games about it but next Friday Ethan and I will be alone and I plan to take him till the children's museum and the carousel in town. I am, praying I do not mess this up with my panicky self.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
It made me think; is there anything here on this earth that can be so bad as to want to take your own life???? I remember when I was a teenager and thought those thoughts. I never gave a thought to those who may be suffering because of my actions. I wonder if this young man thought about his family at all and the pain they will have to live with....
It made me think; there is always hope! We have a God who is screaming out to us in every way he can from the trees and the flowers to the all the wonders of nature. From all the miracles that take place daily from birth to death He is there and has been through it all so He knows what it is to feel like there is no hope and He conquered that feeling. He rose from the dead so we can have life and have it abundantly not so we could despair enough to take our own lives.....
My heart goes with this family as they walk through the whys of how this happened and the anger of knowing their loved one took his own life............I will pray for them to be able to go on...and maybe someday they will meet him again...
Saturday, March 28, 2009
I've been uninspired to blog lately so when I saw this game at my friend Gina's blog, and Cindy's blog I decided it would be fun.
A is for your age: 47
B is for your burger of choice: cheese burger with ketchup
C is for the car that you drive: Jeep Cherokee
D is for dog's name: one dog chespeake bay retreiver Tia about 11 years old and very spoiled
E is for an essential item you use each day: cell phone
F is for your favorite television show: American Idol although with school I have not watched it much this season
G is for favorite game: ??? do not really have a favorite
H is for hometown: Pittsburgh, PA
I is for instruments played: violin in grade school and badly
J is for favorite juice: cranberry
K is for what you'd like to kick: I like Cindy's answer...... Never have done this but there are a few politicians I'd like to kick right now, starting with the president and working down from there. lol! Kick them out of office and do like Mike Huckabee said...pick some random people out of the phone book to replace them because we certainly couldn't do any worse.....But really I would like to kick the yellow pollen out of here it is killing my sinuses
L is for last restaurant you dined at: a Mexican restaurant but I don't remember the name
M is for your favorite muppet: not sure. Gotta go with Kermit
N is for number of piercings you have: 2 - one in each ear
O is for overnight hospital stays: about 6 few surgeries and birth of my twins
P is for people you were with today: patients, doctors and fellow nurses ( I am at work...)
Q is for what you do in quiet times: read, watch tv, just veg
R is for regrets: I really do not have any regrets.....I have learned from my mistakes or at least I think I have.
S is for status: Married
T is for time you woke up today: 4:45 to get ready for work
U is for what you consider unique: people
V is for favorite vegetable: actually it is easier to say what I do not like...okra, beets, raddishes, lima beans
W is for your worst habit: emotional eating, but I am working on that have not done it for about 2 months....maybe I broke that habit....I hope so
X is for x-rays you have had: knee
Y is for yummy food you ate today: strawberry bananna yogurt
Z is for zodiac sign: Taurus but I don't follow astrology or believe in it