Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Saturday, December 27, 2008
We had a wonderful evening. They live with her parents so we were just driving up visiting and coming home. (3 hour drive). It was truly wonderful to spend time with them. They are both Christans so we could have some very good conversations. My son will finish school in the summer. They are trying to figure out what the next step is for them. They have looked into a possibility in Canada, and are thinking maybe of coming here for a few till the student loans are paid off. Then Bryan will go to seminary, If that is where the Lord leads him.
The visit was wonderful even talking about where the Lord may lead them. I felt a strange peace I do not feel when I talk to my daughter about the future. (I do not think she is a Christan.) I know the Lord will take care of them because He has plans for them. I love spending time with them and hope the Lord leads their journey here for a while but if not. I will deal with that at that time. Right now I am just waiting for my new grandson to appear!
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
On the other hand I recently talked to a nurse manager in the hospital to get extra shifts because of cut backs and calling me off. She hired me part time and told me I can work when ever and what ever shift I want. I have been thinking lately with all the changes coming to the clinics. Do I want to work full time in the hospital again? Pros of hospital work; I know what to expect (it is hard work), 3 12 hour shifts as apposed to 5 days a week, more money for off shifts. Cons it is hard, back breaking work,leave the doctors and people I work with ( I Love them), I will have to work week ends and holidays..
I am trying to weigh this all out in my brain......where does the Lord want me?......what does He want me to do?.. AM I struggling with this decision because the Lord is moving me to another place and I am rejecting His will?
I think what I have decided to do is wait around and see how bad or good the changes are then make my decision. I think I will try it out before I run from the change......even if I want to right now. .... What do you think????
Friday, December 19, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I remember in 1980's my step dad worked for United States Steel. They went under and closed a ton of mills. There was no bail out package. There was no government help. My step dad lost his job along with hundreds of others. I remember how depressed he was and how bad things got for my family. There was no government help. My mom and step dad lost everything. He lost his job and his dignity. They lost the house we grew up in, it went up for sheriff's sale. They had to moved to another state with my younger brothers. My youngest sister was 18 so we stayed in Pennsylvania. The rest of the family moved to Maine. My step dad tried for many years to get another job. He got a few jobs but never anything substantial. Finally the stress of it all eventually took his health and then took his life. He died at the age of 43. He had a massive heart attack while training to become a truck driver. He made it home only to see my mom and go to the hospital. He died in the ambulance. My brothers were 14 and 15 years old.
SO I am sorry I do not get the bail out thing are we trying to make up for mistakes from the past? Will the bail out package make sales better in the future? Will the workers be able to continue to work there? Or will this bail out package just postpone the inevitable and GM will lay off hundreds of workers like US Steel did.
I do not mean to ugly or mean at Christmas time but the fact is this company can not make it anymore. Terrible as it sounds people will loose jobs. The money in the bail out package will not go to the layed off workers. It will go to management big wigs who made the bad decisions in the first place. If this bail out package went to workers like my step dad to pay their mortgage or keep the lights on I would be the first one to vote YES!! But it will not, those workers will never see a dime of the bail out money.
This subject has been weighing heavy on my mind lately. Like the title of my blog says these are just my thoughts.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Let me tell you what I do... I work in the clinic with two doctors both surgeons one breast cancer one endocrine. I see patients with them. In order to know what I am doing about 1-2 hours is spent before each clinic, Usually the day before, to prep for the clinic. I look up each patient find out why they are coming see if ordered tests were scheduled. Mainly so I know whats going on. After the clinic I must chart a note on each patient. I also get phone calls from patients of the docs I work with. I used to have at least 1 1/2 days to get all the behind the scenes work done now I have 1/2 if I am lucky. If I am not in a clinic I have been getting called off. Used all my vacation time so now I get called off with out pay.
SO I went into the hospital to see if they need work and I actually got hired for a part time position to get some hour to supplement my pay for days when I am called off. I am wondering should I just go back into the hospital. I like both. Other nurses tell me this to shall pass and we will be OK again. But I wonder how long can I do this feeling this blah!
The holidays are here and I feel humbug. We have no money right now to go shopping. Barely have enough to pay bills right now. Kevin is supposed to get his Christmas bonus this week. I am afraid to look forward to it. My work has already told us no bonus no pay raise this year.
So I changed my background and on Saturday we are going to get our tree half way between us and my son so they will meet us there and we will spend the day at the tree farm. I will keep trying to kick the humbug away from my Christmas spirit.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Just wanted to put a touch of background here. Today I have been thinking a lot. Maybe I was treated badly because the other family members were feeling like I was yesterday, as in my last post.
SO I decided to let God have control. He gave me two wonderful years with my grandmother here with me. It was wonderful to have her around again. Now it is time for her to go back home to Pittsburgh. I accept that. I trust God and I do not feel any guilt in any way where my grandmother is concerned. I have always made her a part of my life. I have never went more than 1 week to talk to her. I have been in SC for 12 years and have called her every week sometimes twice a week. The past two years have been a blessing from the Lord, and He is in control. I know that. I except it.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Not really expecting a comment or response just wanted to vent my feelings... Thank you for letting me do that.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
I haven't posted for a while so I hope all is well. I will catch up all the posts I missed when everyone goes home....:(
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Sharon, my daughter, just found out her next store neighbor's grand son who was hurt from an ATV (4 wheeler) may be in dire trouble. The doctor's called the family to his bedside yesterday. They think he may not make it. He is seven years old. His dad let him ride the ATV by himself;he flipped it; breaking several bones his pelvis, legs, arms, ribs, knee caps and clavicle. Dad found him 1 hour later. (That part is a whole other story...) Can you please say a pray for him today....Maybe the Lord will make a miracle recovery for this little boy. Sharon does not remember his name but her neighbor's name is Brenda........
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Saturday, November 15, 2008
I'll let ya know when we get home.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Only one more day until I see my babies!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
I can rejoice because I will see them ALL next week. My daughter and grandson will be here in 4days. My grandson called today and told me "Memaw I am ready to get on a plane and come to your house!" I am so excited I can not wait to see them!
Monday, November 10, 2008
It just makes me think of those men and women who are fighting for our country now over seas. I may not always agree with the war but I think the veterans fighting and retired deserve our respect and honor. My daughter and son in law were both in the army and could have gone to Iraq or Afghanistan. When I asked them why they would want to do that both of them simply replied. "It is my job, that is what I do." Their term ended before either of them had to go, I thank the Lord for that! But I know others have sons, daughters, moms, dads, brothers and sisters over there. I think we should all say a prayer for them as we go through our day tomorrow. They deserve it.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Saturday, November 8, 2008
I'll be back I have to get ready........
Friday, November 7, 2008
I am however still coughing despite taking ALL the antibiotics. It seemed to go away for a few days....maybe a day or two...then coughing again! I called the doc again today. She is stumped. She is going to send to me have an upper GI because GERD can cause coughing if me esophagus is not closing all the way. ( I looked that up on the Internet.) Then if that is negative she will send me to a pulmonologist. I had a small pity party for my self at the thought that something bad could be going on but I am over that now. I am thinking GERD is causing the problem. SO I will have the test the doctor suggest and then make a diagnosis.
Thank you for all your support.
Be back tomorrow sometime. I have my first walk with my accountability partners. I also have a paper to write for the end of my school semester so I am sure I will be here while contemplating what to write... Good night :)
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
The doctor said this is a medication you really should not be on for the rest of your life. Now it has been two years and I do not think I need the medication any more. So I talked about it with my doctor and we agreed to taper off the medication. Today was the first day. I feel fine just tired. But, considering I just got over pertussis maybe I should still be tired. Today I find my self analysing every feeling I have like....... I woke up nauseated this morning and OMG my blood sugar must be low so without even checking it I ate something. Then realized today was the first day of the taper and started thinking .....how am I feeling now..... how am i feeling now..... I am doing this to myself. I know this because the medication has not yet had a chance to make any changes. But I am fearful it will happen again. I only have to put my trust in Jesus and stop letting my own mind sike me out. I have my couple small group bible study tonight at 6:30. Kevin is working I am trying to decide if I want to go...... I'll let you know later....
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Monday Night I go to a small group for those with addictions. We support each other, listen to each other, share with each other and study the bible. I am addicted to food crazy as it seems. I am a over eater. I eat to feel good, eat because I am bored, lonely, sad, glad, alert, sleepy. You name it I eat for it. I am also a diabetic and a nurse so I should know better but I don't. I can teach my patients but not me isn't that weird. So I have been praying about this and asked God for help. I right now am too poor for weight watchers and once found out you can cheat on ww and still loose weight. So I need some one to be accountable to. Last night at small group one of our members Patsy patted me on the shoulder told me she struggles with over eating too. We talked after the study and decided we would meet on Saturday morning for a walk in the park. maybe a few other ladies from the group would come too. patsy told me since we both had the same problem with food maybe we should be accountability partners to each other. I was so excited the God had answered my prayer I cried most of the way home as I praised our most precious and holy Savior.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
I love my husband even after all this time. he is my best friend, my confidant, my support, and partner. I am so glad God gave him to me.
Thank you Lord for a wonderful day.
Friday, October 31, 2008
My problem is with haloween. I do not choose to use a capitol letter on this holiday because I feel as a whole we give it to much respect already. I have long since thought as a Christ follower I should not practice haloween. I rationalized it out when I had children so they could dress up and go trick-or-treating. But as the years have gone on I have been noticing more and more what it is that makes me feel uncomfortable about this holiday. I see houses all light up with orange lights with big displays of ghosts, goblins, witches and zombies. Big black cauldrons in yards with smoke coming out as if it were a witches brew. Every year it is a little more ridiculous. I have held my tongue about this for a long time. Then just the other day I went into the pharmacy to get my medicine and I saw the most disturbing thing to me. It was a black Christmas tree with orange lights sitting on a skull! My first thought was how outrageous this is. Then I realized some people would actually buy this monstrosity and display it in their yards or homes! Now I feel I have to speak my mind, you may not agree with me but this is my opinion. I feel like Satan who has a strong hold on this world is slowly but surely making haloween to be the holiday to which children look forward to like Christmas. I think Satan enjoys that Christain people actually celebrate his holiday. He is sneaking it in a little more and more every year until we are totally desensitized by it. Just like the world we live in. Day by day Christians are being beat down and tormented by society. I mean seriously is there any other holiday that gets this much attention except for Christmas. How many times have you heard the local news feature a yard display for Thanksgiving, Easter, or the 4th of July?
Thursday, October 30, 2008
I was thinking and praying about all this and it brought a question to my mind. As I posted a few days or maybe a week ago we are in hard times. In fact I went to an agency yesterday(before I knew I was terribly contagious!) to apply for extra shifts at local hospitals and facilities. Then this news I am sick and will have to take a few days off work with out pay! HMMM I wonder. I know there is a lesson in all this for me to learn. I only hope I do learn it and am not dense enough to let the lesson pass me by. My husband and I have our speculations about what we are supposed to learn, but will only know in God's time. I pray Dear Lord help us to learn the lessons you are teaching us....and help us to be able to help others with what we learn.. In Your Precious and Holy Name ...Amen!
Went to the doctor she thinks I have pertussis; yea that is whooping cough! O MY!!
So now I am off for the rest of the week should have started antibiotics today but have no money so I will get them tomorrow.
Wow, so I am off for the next couple days (without pay because I have no vacation time left). Maybe I can catch up on house work, maybe, or maybe my reading.......I don't know we shall see. All I know is this is kind of crazy. I never thought I would get whooping cough!!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
The economy may be a bundle of mess but I choose to live my happy life trusting in the Lord, Jesus Christ.
Well I gotta get some school work done I'll be back to tell you about the service and the festival. Happy Weekend everyone!
Thursday, October 23, 2008
I think sometimes when are you coming Lord this place is a mess! Then I think of my precious grandson and my new grandson who will be born in January. I want to see them grow and be a grandma. I wonder am I really ready Lord? I think I am am. I hope you will approve of my work here. I try my best for you.
I think I am ready are you??????
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
I was not feeling too good this morning the week has left my stomach a mess. I woke up several times last night and today wanted to stay close to the bathroom if you know what I mean.
Now to the real reason I wanted to post about. While I was home today along with straightening up around the house. I watched a Trading spouses marathon. I do not know why I like this show but I do. If you do not know the premise there are two such shows. The first Trading Spouses trade to wives from completely different backgrounds into each other's world for a week. They receive $50,000 for participating but what they do not know is the wife gets to choose how the money will be spent for the family she is traded to.
The episode that I felt I had to write about traded a women who was very obsessed about having a clean house and a controlled schedule. Everything went according to her schedule and her opinion. The second wife was not as clean but had a clean home, loved to spend time with her family and was very affectionate with her family.
I watched the whole show but was impacted by the last few minutes of the show. Clean freak went into happy go luck's house and cleaned it from top to bottom. Happy go lucky went into clean freak's house and wanted to show the children how to have fun, She had a party with props. Silly string, streamers and everything a home made party has. At the end of the show when clean freak came home she greeted her family and before the first hour was over she saw silly string on the wall and ceiling. She asked about what happened the family tried to tell her. It ensued an argument by husband and wife, with children in between. I saw mom on one side dad on the other stressing their points to each other loudly. What broke my heart was their daughter' who throughout the show had tried very much to keep the house clean so mom would not get upset and finally had some fun in the end, she had a pasted smile on her face and was jumping up and down between her parents. As if she were saying hey look at me I am happy everything is OK do not fight!! Maybe this struck a cord with me because I was that child. I know what she was feeling and it is not pretty. I want to say a prayer for that little girl.
Dear Lord, please help that little girl to know she is not the cause of her parents arguments. There is absolutely nothing she can do to fix it. Most of all Lord please let her start to believe in herself and know she can do anything with You who give her strength.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
Also school starts back on Monday so I really have no time........
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Our church, Point North Community Churchhttp://www.pointnorth.org/, is going to take a mission trip to Galveston Texas. I volunteered!
I am scared, I am excited. I am scared because I do not know what I will be asked to do, and will my work give me the time off. You see my daughter and grandson are coming the week before Thanksgiving anfd I want to spend time with them, so I do not want to use up my vacation time for this. So, that makes me scared because I will probally have to do this with out pay. I am excited because I am trusting the Lord and stepping out of my comfort zone for HIM!
Please pray for this mission trip.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Have a great weekend y'all!
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Thursday, September 11, 2008
A few minutes ago I got a call from my sister saying he is out and he is fine. One of his adteries was completely blocked but the other had taken up the slack and was working very well. There is a small blockage in the one taking up the slack but they want to watch it put him on medication and heart healthy diet and exercise. PRAISE THE LORD FOR HE IS GOOD!!!!!!!
Friday, August 29, 2008
Saturday, July 5, 2008
I had taken a few days off this week because of the holiday and my sister in law , her family and my son and daughter in law were coming to spend some time here. So I took Nan and mom to the doctor, the doctor wanted to send Nana to the hospital to get IV antibiotics, and round the clock nebulizers. I took them to the hospital waited until they were secure in a room and then left to come home to my house full. Mom was not feeling well either, the thing is she is such a DRAMA QUEEN and every little thing is drawn out FOREVER and EVER...
Now it is three days later, ther has been drama every day believe me.
My point is I called today after volunteeing to bring my granmother here with all my visitors and she did not want to come wanted to stay home. I called mom today to see how they were and she told me she still had a head ache and my grandmother had a bad night.
I am just tired of feeling guilty because I am doing everything I can. I gave up my house for a year! I go there several times a week. I call everyday and still I feel guilty. WHY?
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Monday, May 12, 2008
Friday, May 9, 2008
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Happy Birthday to me! It was a wonderful day. We started out slow but it was great! I spent the whole day with my daughter and grandson. We went shopping, we went to the carosel in downtown Salem, then to the park. I got to watch Ethan at his swimming lessons. Then I came back to Sharon's for dinner and birthday cake. It was wonderful! The best part of the day is hearing Ethan say "Happy Birthday Memaw. I am truely blessed. Only a few more days to spend with them. I will enjoy every minute!
Monday, May 5, 2008
This is my grandson.He is such a joy to my life.He is so lovable and loves to snuggle.I am here in Oregon with him now. I am Memaw. I was so worried because I live in South Carolina and he in Oregon that he would not know who I was, but he knew me at the airport. It only took aout 2 minutes then he recognized me and came right to me.
I am here until Thursday night when I fly back to the east coast. I am going to make the most of every day; get as many hugs and kisses as I can. So I can store them up until I see him again. I praise the Lord for this little fella, his mommy and daddy too. Hopefully my son will have some babies for me on the east coast too. That is what I am waiting for a house full of grandkids. I thank the Lord for the mates he chose for my children. I love being Memaw and look forward to the future.
Saturday, May 3, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
information and trip at tayloradoption.blogspot.com. They have pictures of Lilian and the whole family. I am so excited about it I can not wait to see her.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Now I am really on the east coast, I live in South Carolina.
Now my husband and I live in our house with our dog. No kids all grown up.
Sometimes I want to have another baby of my own. My husband says NO.
My son also lives in SC with his wife but they live in Greenville three hours away.
I guess I am suffering from empty nest syndrom. At least that is what I am told.
Good bye for now. I'll be back soon.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
My mom has moved with my grandmother into a a little place of their own. That is good. We are getting along better now but we still do have our moments. She now lives down the street from my sister, so she can help them alot more now.
I have actually started back to school to I am going to get my bachelor's degree in Nursing.
The hour is getting late so I am going to leave for now but I promise to be back soon.