Friday, October 31, 2008


I have a problem with haloween these days. It has nothing to do with trick-or-treat. I think it is a fun activity kids look forward to all year long. They love to dress up and pretend they are someone else. That is a treat for all kids. I just wish it was not associated with this holiday.
My problem is with haloween. I do not choose to use a capitol letter on this holiday because I feel as a whole we give it to much respect already. I have long since thought as a Christ follower I should not practice haloween. I rationalized it out when I had children so they could dress up and go trick-or-treating. But as the years have gone on I have been noticing more and more what it is that makes me feel uncomfortable about this holiday. I see houses all light up with orange lights with big displays of ghosts, goblins, witches and zombies. Big black cauldrons in yards with smoke coming out as if it were a witches brew. Every year it is a little more ridiculous. I have held my tongue about this for a long time. Then just the other day I went into the pharmacy to get my medicine and I saw the most disturbing thing to me. It was a black Christmas tree with orange lights sitting on a skull! My first thought was how outrageous this is. Then I realized some people would actually buy this monstrosity and display it in their yards or homes! Now I feel I have to speak my mind, you may not agree with me but this is my opinion. I feel like Satan who has a strong hold on this world is slowly but surely making haloween to be the holiday to which children look forward to like Christmas. I think Satan enjoys that Christain people actually celebrate his holiday. He is sneaking it in a little more and more every year until we are totally desensitized by it. Just like the world we live in. Day by day Christians are being beat down and tormented by society. I mean seriously is there any other holiday that gets this much attention except for Christmas. How many times have you heard the local news feature a yard display for Thanksgiving, Easter, or the 4th of July?

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Time for sleep

Time for sleep my friends. Today was a good day. But it is now time to try to go to sleep. Hopefully I will be able the doctor gave me medicine to help me stop coughing and start sleeping. I will be taking that in a minute. So good night for now.

Hello my friends

Hello my friends... Well I am doing quite good after my smack in the face news yesterday. I am not sure I have the illness the doctor thinks I have but I am only a nurse and the patient after all. She has much much more experience than I.
I was thinking and praying about all this and it brought a question to my mind. As I posted a few days or maybe a week ago we are in hard times. In fact I went to an agency yesterday(before I knew I was terribly contagious!) to apply for extra shifts at local hospitals and facilities. Then this news I am sick and will have to take a few days off work with out pay! HMMM I wonder. I know there is a lesson in all this for me to learn. I only hope I do learn it and am not dense enough to let the lesson pass me by. My husband and I have our speculations about what we are supposed to learn, but will only know in God's time. I pray Dear Lord help us to learn the lessons you are teaching us....and help us to be able to help others with what we learn.. In Your Precious and Holy Name ...Amen!

That is what the doctor said

Ok, I went to the doctor today. I have had a cough for a long time about two months long time. I thought it was my allergies acting up. Then the weather changed from hot to cold so I thought must be from my sinuses. Then the weather changed back to hot and cold again. Finally I got so so tired of coughing I thought I should call the doctor. First she stopped a medication I was newly taking started taking a few months ago because its side effect is cough. SO now I have been off the medication for a whole week and still I am coughing. I called again and was told if I still had the cough by today I should go to the doctor's office. Well today comes still coughing!!
Went to the doctor she thinks I have pertussis; yea that is whooping cough! O MY!!
So now I am off for the rest of the week should have started antibiotics today but have no money so I will get them tomorrow.
Wow, so I am off for the next couple days (without pay because I have no vacation time left). Maybe I can catch up on house work, maybe, or maybe my reading.......I don't know we shall see. All I know is this is kind of crazy. I never thought I would get whooping cough!!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Yeah I know I am still awake

I changed my dots. The more I look at it I think I like the dark. Then I took the dots off completely. I like it this way for now. I love blue all shades of blue. Who knows what tomorrow will bring. But I like it now!

2am and I am awake.......WHY????

Hello World. It is 2 am and I am awake again. Why??? I wish I knew. I think it is because I worked night shift so long my body clock is all messed up!! This happened Saturday night too. SO I got out of bed at 2:30 am and sat on the couch or the computer until morning when my hubby got up to go to church. Went to church. It was Great!!! Then to the Fall festival had a great time until about 3 in the afternoon then I was REALLY tired. The picture is us at the festival Kevin and I. Any way I came home from the festival fell asleep at 3:30ish and woke up at 6am Monday morning! Which is probably why I can not sleep tonight. O well I think I will try to get some sleep.
Just a thought I heard in a sermon a man kept waking up at 3 am continually. Finally he prayed about it and it turns out there was someone he needed to pray for at that time. SO I have had a certain young lady from my bible study on my mind lately. Maybe I will use this time to pray for her. If you get a second you could pray for her also. God knows who she is. Thank you all and hopefully this is good night.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Miracle Sunday and Fall Festival

My church is having a big service tomorrow. They are calling it Miracle Sunday and after that we all go to our Fall Festival. I am really looking forward to the service tomorrow. We have been in some trying times but I know the Lord has all of us His children in the palm of His hand and He knows how many tears we cry over our circumstances. I know as sure as Romans 8:28 says everything will work out for good for us who love the Lord that this too shall pass.
The economy may be a bundle of mess but I choose to live my happy life trusting in the Lord, Jesus Christ.
Well I gotta get some school work done I'll be back to tell you about the service and the festival. Happy Weekend everyone!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Are you ready

The state has a deficit it is cutting back on programs. I work at MUSC the Medical University of South Carolina, a state facility. So we have cut backs. I will soon be working 32 hours a week and heading for a nursing agency or other facility to get some hours for work. My husbands job has no orders so he too is making less money. The stock market is falling more and more all over the world. Jesus, I am ready! Are you coming soon? I am ready are you?
I think sometimes when are you coming Lord this place is a mess! Then I think of my precious grandson and my new grandson who will be born in January. I want to see them grow and be a grandma. I wonder am I really ready Lord? I think I am am. I hope you will approve of my work here. I try my best for you.
I think I am ready are you??????

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Just thinking

I wonder sometimes what is the plan for my life Lord? Am I living up to Your expectation of me? Am I where You want to be in my life? What will You have be do next Lord? Where do I go next? What is the next chapter of my life to be? The questions of life I ponder sometimes. I wonder would it be better if the Lord opened the book one day and told me directly.....Becky you are supposed to do this or that....Would I do it or would I hide because I felt inferior to do the plan the Lord has for me? My prayer today is Lord lead me where you want me to...Place me where you need me..And help me live up to the expectations of Your Son Jesus Christ.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Different People

Today is Saturday October 11th. My brother's birthday. Happy birthday Tom!!! (I just had to mention that it has nothing to do with my post.)
I was not feeling too good this morning the week has left my stomach a mess. I woke up several times last night and today wanted to stay close to the bathroom if you know what I mean.

Now to the real reason I wanted to post about. While I was home today along with straightening up around the house. I watched a Trading spouses marathon. I do not know why I like this show but I do. If you do not know the premise there are two such shows. The first Trading Spouses trade to wives from completely different backgrounds into each other's world for a week. They receive $50,000 for participating but what they do not know is the wife gets to choose how the money will be spent for the family she is traded to.
The episode that I felt I had to write about traded a women who was very obsessed about having a clean house and a controlled schedule. Everything went according to her schedule and her opinion. The second wife was not as clean but had a clean home, loved to spend time with her family and was very affectionate with her family.
I watched the whole show but was impacted by the last few minutes of the show. Clean freak went into happy go luck's house and cleaned it from top to bottom. Happy go lucky went into clean freak's house and wanted to show the children how to have fun, She had a party with props. Silly string, streamers and everything a home made party has. At the end of the show when clean freak came home she greeted her family and before the first hour was over she saw silly string on the wall and ceiling. She asked about what happened the family tried to tell her. It ensued an argument by husband and wife, with children in between. I saw mom on one side dad on the other stressing their points to each other loudly. What broke my heart was their daughter' who throughout the show had tried very much to keep the house clean so mom would not get upset and finally had some fun in the end, she had a pasted smile on her face and was jumping up and down between her parents. As if she were saying hey look at me I am happy everything is OK do not fight!! Maybe this struck a cord with me because I was that child. I know what she was feeling and it is not pretty. I want to say a prayer for that little girl.
Dear Lord, please help that little girl to know she is not the cause of her parents arguments. There is absolutely nothing she can do to fix it. Most of all Lord please let her start to believe in herself and know she can do anything with You who give her strength.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

A new day and a new perspective

I realized on Sunday I have a problem with overeating. It consumes me. Why, right now I do not know but that is the process which I have started with the Lord. I am through with hurting my self and my health. Before Cal's series "Captive" I thought to myself I am not going to get anything from this I am not addicted to anything. Then I walked into the church Sunday morning. I noticed overeating on the board behind Cal and thought wow that is an addition? How can I be addicted to food when it is food I need to live? As Cal spoke on Sunday morning I sometimes thought as though God were pointing HIS finger right at me, like there was a neon sign above my head that was a huge arrow. I realized I use food as a crutch for a lot of things. That day I made a commitment to change. I started the Monday night small group because I am captive to food and need God's help to release me from my bondage. I realize this will be a daily struggle but I can do all things through God who strengthens me.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Our baby, the dog OMG

Last night I got a phone call from my daughter with my grandson crying in the back ground. Sharon explained that their dog Keiko, a german sheppard, had snapped at Etha and bit him in the face. They were on their way to the hosital and Ethan wanted to talk to me. She put hm on the phone and he broke my heart crying "Memaw Keiko bit me!" I tried to hold back the tears but he sounded so pittiful as he cried. Sharon then took the phone to see if I was ok. She would call me back as soon as they knew anything. Kieko was a puppy when they got him. He was very protective of Ethan and then all the sudden this.... Why? Why?

I tried to remain calm and hand it over to God but my brain kept giving all kinds of scenerios of what happened and how scared Ethan must have been. I wanted to scream at God why could you let this happen to our baby!!!!! I wanted to be there so I could comfort him and Sharon instead of Sharon comforting me......trying to calm me...Why are my prayers not answered why do I live so far away from my children.....Why when all my life my prayer has been to have a family now that I have my own are we so far away from each other......All these questions come to mind when something hapens and I am so far away.....I know I have no control, God has all control but ......why does it hurt so much.....

Ok enough about me back to our baby. He was ok once he got to the hospital and the nurses started smoozing over him. The eye doctor came in and said he had to go to surgery!!!!!OMG!!!!! The dog had tore his tear duct and they needed to repair it. He was in surgery for what seemed like HOURS!!!! But in reality it was only about an hour and a half. His surgery went well and he was able to go home with Sharon and Malcholm last night. They called me and let him talk to me on the way home. He said " Memaw I am all fixed."

Friday, October 3, 2008

Sick Today Feeling BLAHHHH!!!

I feel like crap today. Infact it started yesterday my head started to feel like I was in a bubble, my ears felt clogged and my sinuses hurt. Basically my head hurt. I left work early and went to bed at 7pm, I did not even watch Grey's Anatomy! Today I woke up when the alarm went off to feel worse. Not only my head but my stomach was cramping and awful. Needless to say I did not go to work today which makes me mad because I am trying to save vacation time and going to talk to my boss about the mission trip to Texas. I have a meeting with my boss for that on Monday. Please pray for that for me. Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow, or I will make myself feel better tomorrow I should say because I have no time to be sick......Do ya hear me Satan!!!! No time.... I have things to do....places to be ...... and a mission trip to prepare for!!!
Also school starts back on Monday so I really have no time........