It was a great time and I feel truly blessed and I give all my praises to my glorios Lord and Saviour Jesus. Thank you Lord!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
I was shocked I sat there for a minute or two stunned. Then I got up got my coat and went to find the social worker but she was not in her office. The secretary said she would find her for me but I could feel my self getting emotional and told her I would talk to the sw tomorrow....I went to my car and lost it! I was so mad and hurt and devastated because they took my grandmother away from me I could not believe how mean and cruel they were. I talked to my mom, my daughter, and my husband. All who told me they were indeed mean but I should just not let it get me down and go back later...Because if I did they would win they were only doing this to upset me. I thought about it a little then my two sisters called to see how I was ...I lost it again with them...
After that I went to distract my self with some Christmas shopping....it worked!
I went back this evening and spend 2 whole hours with my Nana. My dad, step mom and sister came just in case the mean people came and tried anything again...They did not!...It was a great visit...
I was thinking on my way home....I love my grandmother dearly. I have kept in touch with her all my life...I have never gone more than a week without talking to her or seeing her when I was close. I have absolutely NO Guilt in my relationship with my grandmother ever!!!
I will not let them take my grandmother away from me!!! I will pray and turn it over to my Lord and He will take care of me and my grandmother. He will restore our Joy and he already has!!!
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
The thing is I can't help thinking about the wwothnw. She is mean; she is vicious; and vindictive when it comes to my grandmother and it is all about power. She has it now and she wants us to know it. I can not imagine living every day with that kind of hate inside. She hates us....and the funny thing is I have no idea why.....
Saturday, December 4, 2010
I am thinking God is wonderful and his timing is perfect. I was waiting to hear about a new job. I got the job. My concern was that it was in a dark office; well I heard there has been a shuffling of offices and I will now be in my old office which is light and bright.
I am thankful for the great friends I have..Those I have met from work..those I have met from church..Those I have met from blogging..Those I have met along the way..God has placed every one of them in my life and I am thankful.
From the kitchen I am smelling breakfast, I am making a breakfast blend with sausage, potatoes, eggs and cheese. (Some times I get domestic and even surprise myself.)
I am wearing jeans and a black jersey and white socks.
I am studying the gastro intestinal system and all its complications and problems.
I am going to Pittsburgh on Friday to see my grandmother who will be 97 years old next week. I am going to drive by myself. I am excited, and nervous.
I am reading still the Centurion's wife. along with all the school stuff.
I am hoping for a good holiday season, a great visit with my Nana and my dad.
I am hearing the dog panting and Kevin talking to her because we are eating our breakfast and she wants some.
Around the house messy needs cleaning
One of m favorite things spending time with my Nana (my grandmother)
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
I am in school for my master's degree as many of you know in nursing. This is a big task and I have decided to my best at this. I feel by doing my best I am honoring God who has given me this opportunity. So I applied for a couple day time jobs which would leave me open on nights and weekends to do school. I thought I was perfectly qualified for the first job; everyone told me I was. The interviews went great. I made it all the way to the end of the process and then I heard nothing. I called they told me it still looked good but they were still interveiwing. I still heard nothing so I thought well for some reason this job was stalled and I would hear at some future point. So I moved on. I got a call from a friend of mine who is the manager in the cancer clinic. She had a job I would be perfect for triage of cancer patients at the clinic. it is a Mon- Fri job, no weekends or holidays. A regular job, now I work 3/ 12 hr night shifts which really messes up the rest of my life. I work night so I sleep in the day; kevin works swing shift so he works days and nights. But he works 4 days on and 4 days off so my 3/ 12s work with his schedule because we can have days off together and manke plans and do things.
Ok so my friend offers me this job. Kevin and I talk and the two of us decide it is a good thing so we can go along with our two year plan of me finishing school and moving closer to home in two years. So I have done everything Stacy wants me to do. The new schedule where I work comes out and I am not on it. I call Stacy and I get a text that syas we have to talk money and she will call me later. If I move to the clinic I will already take a pay cut because I will not be getting my shift diffrential. So I told Stacy I would want to take this job for my base pay. So if we have to talk money that is making me think they want to work for less. What do I do??? Take a pay cut???? or stay where I am????
I need God to show me the way...... Please pray for guidance.......
Saturday, November 20, 2010
I am thinking God is good all the time
I am thankful for I am truly blessed. I have many friends the Lord has lead into my life from several venues from in person to Internet connections. My family is terrific and I my husband and I are both working
From the kitchen today I have something cooking!! ;) I have double chocolate brownies in the oven....and later stuffed meatballs
I am wearing jeans, comfy sock slippers and a flannel shirt
I am studying the respiratory system
I am going to teach at church later Kids Pointe, then church in the morning and back to work tomorrow night
I am reading still reading the centurion's wife getting to the good part
I am hoping I can go home to see my grandmother soon....she will be 97 on Dec 15 this year
I am hearing the washing machine on the spin cycle and Tombstone the movie in the living room
Around the house the living room needs vacuumed when Kevin wakes up.....my fall decorations are out in the dining room....the smell of brownies lingers around the house
One of my favorite things I love Autumn...the way the trees turn colors of the rainbow a picture painted by God for us to enjoy
A few plans for the week usual school and work....Kevin and I are going down town Charleston for a date and dinner on Thanksgiving, then shopping on Black Friday
Monday, November 15, 2010
Something, the Holy Spirit, told me to bring a Bible, pen, paper and camera. Next I found my self on a by the river under a big oak tree reaching down to the water. (the picture is above). Not knowing what to read I prayed"Dear Lord please open my heart and mind to You so I may see what You want me to see and learn here today." 1 Corinthians 10 came to mind. Since my favorite verse is 1 Corinthians 10:13 I read the chapter. Now I am sitting here in the shade of a big oak tree with the moss hanging down and touching the river with the birds singing while I wait foe Kevin and spend time with my Lord.
I realized I have been taking my favorite verse completely out of content. In verses 1-11 Paul talks of how the Israelites were saved walked through the Red Sea saw the miracles first hand and then turned from God causing them to die in the wilderness as punishment. How many times have I see God's miracles a rainbow in the sky, a new born baby, and all the wonderful miracles of this world God has given us and turned away from Him. Thought I do not want to read my bible now because I want to watch TV. Not now I will get to it. How many times have I felt the twinge of the Spirit to talk to this person or say a prayer for that one or just give that one a hug; and I walked away. Verse 12 says if you think you are standing firm be careful for you to may fall into sin. Verse 27 says if a nonChristain invites you for dinner go and eat what they eat. But do not do anything to cause to make them stumble and move away from God.
This chapter tells me how to minister to the ungodly and that I should. it tells me Jesus dies for sinners and I am a no better I am also a sinner. I should not be proud or afraid Jesus spirit is with me always and I should follow where He leads and give Him the glory.
Dear Lord Jesus,
I will follow where you lead...in your precious and holy Name....Amen...
Just my thoughts for the day......
Saturday, November 13, 2010
I am thinking I have to get ready for Kids Pointe (church for kids at my church) soon. I have to be there in an hour and a half...and I am getting tired I worked last night and have not slept yet and I am not tired... and O MY GOODNESS WHAT IS THAT SMELL?? THE DOG HAS GAS AGAIN!!! (Sorry I am back now, whew!)
I am thankful for my wonderful husband..he loves me and I sometimes don't know why..(I can be a bit neurotic at times and have many more flaws I could name but I won't...at least not now) He makes me laugh. I am so very thankful for his salvation and his relationship with Jesus
From the kitchen sorry folks nothing it is clean nothing cooking..
I am wearing grey leggings, white socks and my purple tank top..(crazy mix I know just took off my sweatshirt when I got home from the walk for The Low Country Pregnancy Center)
I am studying( I changed the creating to studying because that is what I do now because I am in school for my masters in nursing.) The cardiac system in my pathophysiology class.
I am going to church in an hour and a half to teach my kids 3-5 graders. Tomorrow to church in the morning then I don't know.
I am reading The Centurion's Wife; when I am not reading school stuff.
I am hoping I get the job I am interviewing for Monday.
I am hearing the TV 48 hours Hard Evidence.
Around the house my fall decorations are out. The house is a little messy but not bad.
One of my favorite things my curio cabinet with my collection of carousel horses..
A few plans for the rest of the week I have an interview on Monday for a M-F, 9-5 job to help me get school assignments in on time and have regular hours. I have a meeting of the board for Oncology Nursing Society. Spend some time with my hubby and go to work.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
First you have to know the speaker was a Christian woman who's husband is a minister and was following God's plan for them. Her husband and son had gone on a skiing trip. They were on their way back to their Nebraska home when their storm hit.
Her and her daughter were sitting in the living room and got a call from her son. He said to her "Mom dad and I were in a wreck, I am OK but dad can not feel his legs."
he told her where they were and where they were taking them. She through a few things in her bag and left her house never to return again. This started the her storm. Months of hospitals, surgeries, therapy, and having to move to a new home all while her husband was in the hospital paralyzed from the arm pits down.
This what I learned from her as she spoke at the conference.
Storms will come without warning so let your roots grow deep. You do not know when they will happen. Matthew 7:24-25. God did not call us to be easy, breezy and beautiful all the time. We are the reflection of Him. The evil one knows this and wants us to fail. The storm WILL come.
Live your life with no regrets. The people in your life are there for a reason and they are valuable. Treat every good-bye and hello like it is your last. What if we really loved those who God placed in our lives. What would happen if we loved them like Jesus LOVED us. UNCONDITIONALLY...
God wants to use us in our brokenness. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10. We as women pretend with each other. We say all is "OK" even though we are crying on the inside. We all struggle. Sometimes we even look at someone else and say I"I wish I had what she has." But the problem is we do not see the whole picture. God sees the whole picture from beginning to end. Have you ever had a friend going through something and said "call me if you need something?" You know they will never call but we hand out broken promises. Don't say call if you need me......go make them a dinner watch the children for a day, buy them some groceries.
We isolate ourselves when we are broken. God loves brokenness! Embrace the brokenness, God does! Gratefulness and despair can not live in the same place. Gratefulness and despair are closely linked.
Acts 16:23-25 Worship in your storm. If I put my eye on Him. He will get me through. We try to escape so we can get out of our storm. We bargain with God "If you get me out of this I will do this..." Don't try to escape worship Him in the place where you are. When I lift Him up my circumstances become small..
Why does God allow the storms?
Sometimes God allows a storm to change our path.
God allows storms to make us more like Jesus.
God allows storms so He can repair our brokenness.
God allows storms to get us ready for heaven to focus on what is really important.
That was day one. I will post more at a later date.
Dear God. I pray these words on this page will lead someone who is broken to you.
In Your Precious and Holy Name.....Amen
Friday, October 22, 2010
I get so busy with the life I think I need to keep going that I sometimes forget what is really important. My relationship with God. O don't get me wrong I Love the Lord and truly long to be with Him but most days I am soo busy with what "I" have to do that I forget or do not have time to spend with my Lord and Saviour. It is as unacceptable as it sounds. I know I should spend time with God first and then see to my needs and wants but do I always do that? No, I don't; do you? I have good intentions I want to spend time with God then I must get a shower do this or do that and somehow God get pushed to the end of my day....As I listen to my 2 year old grandson have his meltdown I wonder how many times do I sound like that to my God and Father.....HHHMMMM
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
I applied for a job a while ago; went through most of the interveiw process and then it stalled. No has gotten the job yet. This was really bothering me after all I want to get on with my life, make plans. I have things to do and places to see. I gotta go go go....ya know....
Well a crazy thing happened the other day at work. There was a computer glitch incident that made it look like chemo was given to the wrong person..(It was not these meds are checked and rechecked several times with another RN and with the patient.) Anyhow I was approacehed about this by the clinical unit leader and was told to write it all in an email and send it to my boss. Not long after I sent the email my boss called me and talked to me about it. After talking to me abouth that she told me our unit educator was leaving by November 5. She said she would like me to apply for the position. It would only be posted internally and she only asking three people to apply and I was one. This is crazy and amazing to me because this is what I am going to school for. HHHMMMMM! Is this God's way of telling me he has other plans for me than I do????? HHHMMM.........I guess we shall see!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Outside my window The sun is shining through the trees in the yard. It looks like its going to be another beautiful day.
I am thinking It is wonderful that the Chilian mine workers are being rescued. I am amazed that they kept their minds together for so long in such a small space. I am clostrphobic. I am sure I would not have made it 10 minutes let alone 69 days. The nurse in me is wondering if they will have any long term health problems from the experience.
I am thankful for my husband, who is in the kitchen right now making breakfast. My family whom I love dearly and all the blessings the Lord has bestowed on me.
I am wearing my night gown, not too pretty actually, my daughter gave it to me just a simple t shirt dress some would wear out. I have no idea what I will wear today, hmm I think Jean capri pants and a t shirt.
I am rembering Jessica, a little girl who was stuck in a well many years ago and wondering how she is today.
I am going to a Women's Conference tomorrow with the ladies from my church. It is at a resort in Litchfield, South Carolina about an hour and a half from my home. I am excited to spend time with my CHristian sisters and learn what the Lord has planned fro me to learn.
I am reading for school I am reading Advanced Theroetical Perspectives for Nursing, hmm interesting stuff (not really but o well gotta do it) and for my pleasure I am reading The Centurian's Wife by Davis Bunn and Janette Oke a compelling story of the personal slave girl of Pilot's wif and a centurion who are investing the missing body after Christ rose from the grave. I am getting to the good parts now although the reading has been a bit slow because of the interesting stuff I have to read for school.
I am hoping many things come to mind..I am hoping I soon hear that I got the job I applied for so I can work a regular Mon-Fri 8-5 job. My son in law will start the job he got at Fed EX and be able to move east soon so I can be a daily part of my grand sons lives. My sister and brother in law and his brother can recover the losses from the embelzement of their company from thier receptionist so they can keep their business they worked so hard to make.
On my mind my family as always how are my daughter and her family doing; my son and his family. My mom who is with my brother and his family helping with my neice who is recoevering from a couple surgeries for clubbed feet. My grandmother in a nursing home in Pennsylvinia hoping I cn see her soon. My school work, what do I have to do today. My house that needs cleaned, the master bedroom which needs repaired from a leak from our air conditioner which knocked down part of the ceiling that my ghusband says we can now remodel as we had wanted too, but where is all the money coming from? When will all the construction be done? Why can't someone from HGTV call me and come to fix it that would be nice.
From the kitchen absolutely nothing except the dishwasher humming doing our dishes. I have never claimed to be the domestic godess. Infact today it is Kevin's cooking day on the egg. (his new cooking toy that can grill, bake and roast)
Around the house I am thinking needs a gentle cleaning today and maybe its time to get the fall decorations out....and of course the construction project that is stalled because of finances
Plans for the week getting myself ready for the womans retreat and then Saturday kevin and I head to Atlanta for the Big Green Egg festival....I am pretty excited.
One of my favorite things riding my bike and spending time with my husband and my best friend, or maybe we will go canoeing...hmm just love spending time with him.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
I have to say the article made me think a little. I have not practiced haloween for years. My husband was not a Christian while my children were growing up so he say no reason why they could not participate. As they grew old enough to understand I voiced my concerns about the holiday and they made their decisions as teenagers what to do which I am sure was not easy for them having one parent against and one not.
So what do I think now. I still do not agree with haloween, I choose not to capitalize it. However after reading this article I do not agree with all the Christian community bunched up in the church while non-believers rome the streets in the hundreds. I do agree this is a perfect opportunity to share to Christ with those who choose to participate. They may not be responsive to the verbal witness but they may be responsive to a seat after walking a long time with their children, or a cup of water or hot coffee or coca. As the parents enjoy these niceties I could offer them a bible to read in their leizure with a few key passages highlighted. This sounds interesting to me. Because as the article states when will I get the opportunity to talk about Christ to so many unbelievers at one time.
HMMMMM! Just something I am thinking about. I have not decided what I am doing this year but I will definately be thinking and praying about it. I know that for sure.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
I woke up Monday afternoon after working the night before; every thing seemed fine. I felt a little hungry but starting cooking dinner so I thought I will be eating soon. I will be OK. I was cooking chili. My stomach started to get a little upset and I started to get nauseated so I ate a pop tart, mainly because it was something to eat quickly. Kevin left for work on the night shift. I thought I'll just watch TV a while then eat letting my stomach calm down a little since the pop tart. All of the sudden while doing nothing but sitting on the couch totally relaxed; I started getting chest pain. At first I was not alarmed then the pain got much worse; it felt like crushing in my chest and on top of my arms. I became startled and called my doctor thinking maybe I could be seen in the after hours clinic for some kind of stomach issue.
They made me call 911 and come to the hospital. An ambulance arrived and I was wisked to the hospital, mostly mortified because I was in an ambulance.
In the ER I they did tests and decided to admit me for further testing.
I was admitted and spent the night in the hospital. The next day tests were done and I got to go home. I am told heart test come back good although I have to go see my doctor next week (she had to leave town because her nurse's dad died and she was going to the funeral. She told this Tuesday morning when she came into see me.)
Whiling laying around in the hospital alone I made some decisions. Every heart test was coming back normal; which is good don't get me wrong. But still something was wrong to give me that pain. I attribute it to low blood sugar. I get very symptomatic when my blood sugar gets in the 70s. Normal is 80-110.
Diabetes has been ruling my life for the past ten years. I try to loose weight and I gain it back. All the time trying to balance my diet and exercise so my blood sugar does not get to too high or too low. This has not been fun.
A while ago my doctor talked to me about gastric bypass. This procedure has been noted to CURE diabetes in 85% of those who have the surgery. I have decided to take the risk to be in that 85%. The whole process will take a few months before the surgery is even scheduled but I have started the process and plan to go through with it. Kevin and I have talked about it in length. I have only told a handful of my family members mainly because I actually do not know why. I have confided in my husband, my children, my parents and now you.
Once the process starts to be more actively I think I will start another blog to journal my struggles and triumphs. As for now I ask for prayers from my prayer warrior friends.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
The question: Would I rather be uninformed and be optimistic about the future or well informed and pessimistic?
I said I would rather be optimistic; my husband wants to be informed sooo that should make him pessimistic. I would rather spend my whole life not knowing what is going to happen and just trust in the Lord to lead me through my life. I am the kind of person that if I dwell on the future or what may happen I get anxious. Anxiety makes me nauseous and panicky. My husband loves to be well informed although he stated it does not make him pessimist. (I have to say he is not a pessimist, most of the time.)
Which would you be? or do you have another opinion?
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Our love story started in 1978. August 1 to be exact. That is the day we met. I had been staying with my cousin for vacation. I had been there for two weeks; it was the summer of my senior year of high school. I had a great time but had been the third person my cousin and her boyfriends dates for two weeks. The whole family then went to camp. We stayed for the weekend. My cousin and her mom got into an argument and she wanted to go home. She called her boyfriend and his car was broke down. He then asked his friend to drive him up to camp to pick her up and meet me.
The next day they came to our rescue. I remember the day. Silly as it sounds I even remember what he was wearing. He walked up to meet the family; then we left to take the 2hr ride home. On the way home we talked about everything. The four of us having a great time. When we finally got to my house my mom was sitting on the porch. I walked them to the car and he ask for my phone number.
He called me a couple days later.
Our first date was a week later. Kevin lived on the other side of town; I gave him directions and left out about 15 miles (in my defence it was a straight line he was not supposed to turn till I told him to but somehow I did not tell him the straight rode was about 15 miles). He got terribly lost. He called I gave directions again. He finally got to my town and I told him I was in the front yard with a bunch of people. Apparently he drove up and down the street a few times and did not see us. He stopped at a local bar and called again; I again gave him directions. On the way out of the bar my mom who had been at the drug store across the street from where he called saw him and recognized him. Mom yelled out the window"Hey are you Kevin?".
Kevin said "Yes." and mom told him to follow her. He got to the house about 9:30 we drove to the other side of town to hang out with my cousin and her boyfriend.
We watched TV for a while and he rode me back home. That was my first date with the man the Lord had picked out just for me.
Thank you Lord for bringing Kevin into my life and letting us spend our lives together.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
I needed to write this tonight to get it out there and off of me. So I can move on and be the supportive person God wants me to be.
Dear Lord, I pray for health for the baby my niece is carrying. I also pray for the lives of my niece, her baby, and her boyfriend. Thank you Lord.....
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
I know God is great! I know He can move mountains! So why was I so surprised by Him taking care of my son. I do not know. I could rationalize it but that would only give me excuses to make myself feel better. If I say i have faith in God and do not even trust Him with my son what am I saying to the world? Am I saying I trust God when it is convenient for me? Do I trust God with my children and grandchildren? I thought I did. But do I? This is something I am going to have to ponder on and pray about. HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.......................
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Any how spending time here is wonderful. They do not have any cable or satalite for their tv yet and get no reception so we have not had TV. SO we have had long conversations and just sat and watched my grandson Asher play, it has been a great visit. We have one more night and will leave after lunch tomorrow. We went to church with my son and his family this morning; it was a great service. The mere fact that my son and his family are happy and all the bills are again paid for a second month is a wonderful gift of God.
I admire the faith of this young family as they stepped out on faith alone. Neither of them knowing a head of time that they had jobs just knowing this is what God wanted them to do and where he wanted them to be. As we visit we have seen many mre families in the same area having had the same experiences. I admire them all and praise God for this young generation willing to follow His word in a worl where that is no longer the thing to do.
Monday, August 23, 2010
My son in law is also looking for a job. My daughter thankfully has a good job now so they will be ok but have to cut corners a bit more. My son in laws unemployment runs out this week also.
My prayer....God I know you are always there and look out for your children. These are my children, Lord. I am afraid for them. My concern for my children is not as great as your concern for your child was because my children are not facing death on a cross; but it is concern and I know You know about that. Please help these young families that my son and daughter are a part of to get jobs to be able to follow your will for their lives... Thank you in your precious name...AMEN
Thursday, August 19, 2010
I just want to thank God for allowing me to do what I do and to thank Him for my healthy family.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Much has changed since then. I am a wife, mother, grandmother, accomplished as a nurse and love where I am and what I do. But, most importantly I am now a follower of Jesus Christ. I know that He is with me always and I am NEVER really alone. Wherever I am and where ever I go He is with me. OH, I am still human and make mistakes ALL the time and I have my opinions sometimes my opinions are a little selfish after all I am human. The difference now is I am a follower of Christ as I said He is always with me. SO I try to be the best person I can be. When I am selfish I now have an inner voice to let me know I am being selfish and acting human again. I know I am a work in process. to become ore and more like Christ everyday. O, I know I am not there yet but I do try to be the best I can be because after all I will never again be "Alone again naturally"
Friday, August 6, 2010
Next week, actually in two days I am flying to Oregon to see my daughter, son in law, grandson Ethan, and new grandson Remmy. I will post tons of pictures when I get back.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Anyhow we will have four boys with four years!
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
While I was at my son and daughter in laws-in laws house I found out I was excepted in the Master's Program!!!! Next week I start the Master's Program for Nurse Educator!!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
I think after going on this trip this week by my self I can get my confidience back up.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Today, I woke up late. Kevin was awake and doing things around the house. I did not want to ever feel like I did yesterday. I take bio-identical hormones and needed my refill so I ask him if he would drive with me to the other side of town to pick them up. He did. I had called the doctor while we were on our way there to see if I should do anything with the medication I was taking to keep the attacks away, not the xanax. The doctor said I should double my preventive medication. Kevin then took me to dinner and a movie. I love that man; he was just doing something to keep me occupied. He feels so helpless when this happens to me. All he wants to do is take care of me and he does not understand all this. Well, I do not understand it either. I hate it! I hate having to take medications! The truth is I do have to take medication for diabetes and panic attacks. So I will.
I know I am a Christian woman and know that Jesus died for me but I am also a real human with real flaws. Some days these flaws show through. Please forgive me Lord for my flaws and help me to be more and more like You.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
I am a firm believer that God has allowed us to make the modern marvels of medication that we have to combat the ills of the world.
Monday, June 28, 2010
- I have a awesome saviour who loves me enough to die for me and because of Him I am free.
- I have a terrific husband ...He is my other half...perfectly matched for me. he protects me from what ever and mostly from myself..
- I have two terrific children....
- I have a terrific son and daughter in law...I could not have picked better matches for my kids.
- I have GRANDCHILDREN!!!!! and I am going to get more!!!! Right now my Ethan is 4, he is so sweet and smart, my Asher,he is adorable and ready to move...soon, very soon Remy will be here, I can't wait to meet him and in December another new grand...
- I have a career I love... the job gets me down sometimes but I love what I do.
- Kevin has a good job...with chance for advancement and many sites
- We have a nice home and can afford to run it..
- I am relatively healthy....I have a few health problems but they are manageable
- Kevin, my kids, their spouses and children are all healthy
- My parents are great...after a nasty divorce God worked magic and now I have 3 terrific parents....I love them all...
- There are many many more and I thank the Lord for all my blessings!!!!
Thursday, June 24, 2010
My biggest prolem is I have been a nurse for 14 years. I have paid my dues with working flip flop days/nights in the same week schedules. I have worked every holiday, I have worked the crappy schedules. I think I should be able to claim something for that siniorty! Most of the floor are new nurses who have been nurses for less that 1-2 years and they cry and complain when they do not get their way so they get their way! I am sorry it is not FAIR!!!! I do not cry and complain I usually go with the flow and do what needs to be done but this time I am just mad about it!
I am sorry this is not my usual chipper self posting. I am upset and need to vent and this is my forum. I am going to send a email to my boss and the schedule maker and let them know I can only work one shift and since night sshift is working for my health that is the shift I want to work and since there are openings on that shift I do not see a problem with this since I talked to my boss about it before and she agreed. If I need to get a doctors excuse stating this I am sure I can.
Thank you for letting me vent my frustration.
Monday, June 21, 2010
I have always loved just taking pictures. I think the beauty around us shows us the glory of God. He gave us beauty all around us. I love taking pictures of this beauty. I will share from time to time. I actually want to make a few scrapbooks when I get my room ready. Tomorrow I am headed to the beach maybe I will get some good pictures there.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
- I have been listening to the book Eat, Pray, Love. (I listen to books on my ipod while I am driving the radio gets so boring sometimes.) Anyhow I have been listening to this book and it is just a rambling of one woman's journey over a year. It is quite boring sometimes. It has just been making me think I could do this. I could write a book. That is mainly why I started my other blog to write short stories and poems. I think I might spend some time writing over the summer.
- I have had some issues with the not so nice part of the family again. It amazes me why people are so mean. It makes me mad and it also makes sad. I get mad because they think the things the do to get back at me are really just hurting my grandmother. I think mean evil thoughts like God please make them pay and then I think what miserable lives they must have to keep up all this meanness.
- For years I have been looking forward to this or to that and going about my days. I know God has plans for me in the future; I have decided not to live in the future. This is going to be a hard one. I actually live my life on my calender. I have events or something planned at least until the end of the year. I don't think I will stop planning. I will just stop obsessing and live for today. I am, going to totally enjoy this summer. O I will be running from coast to coast to see y new grand son but I will be having fun!
- I FINALLY GRADUATED!!! School is over I am waiting to get my degree in the mail. I did not walk. Now I have the whole summer off before I start the masters program. I know finally what i want to do I want to be a Clinical Nurse Specialist that way I can still do the work I love helping patients and staff in a cancer setting. I am also going to get certified in cancer, oncology,. The test for that is in November but I have to apply by July 7.
I could probably write more and may do that soon but it is time to go to bed. Good night all.
Monday, June 14, 2010
I know who I am and how old I am. I also know the Lord loves me. When I have moments like that above I can not think passed the black whole that my feeling put me in. But I know "the show must go on" to quote Freddie Mercury of Queen (now I am really showing my age). SO today is a new day. I got read my devotion for the day in Psalm 113 where David talks about being in the pit and trusting in God to get him through. So today I will trust Him and He will keep me going.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
That is what I am praying for these days.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
A little while later, my patient the young girl with the pain from the night before called me to her room. We talked a bit, I gave her pain medications she ask for. While we were talking I noticed she had a book from Max Lucado on her bed. I told her I like his writings and she told me her mom had given her the book and told her if she read it she would give her $50. The book is Fearless. I told her in the book he refers to the bible a lot and if she wanted to I would get her a bible to look up the scripture. (This young girl is in a tough place right now. She is sick in the hospital but after she is wheel she has signed herself in to a detox for drugs and alcohol.) I looked at the nurses station where I have seen bibles before and could not find one. I carry a new testament with psalms in my purse. It is a little thing a patient gave me a few years ago. The writing is so tiny I can not read it anymore so I took it in to her. She thanked me several times in just the few minutes I stood in the room. I went in to check on her later and she was sleeping with the bible in her hands. The last time I gave her pain meds she told me she feel asleep with the bible and thanked me again. She said she could tell from how it was worn that I had it a while and it must be special to me. I told her I got it from a patient a few years ago. She thanked me again for giving her my special bible.
When I have time at night when I work I go for a walk and stop by the chapel to spend some quiet time for God. Tonight when I stopped I had some special prayers of thanks for my God who wanted me to know this is exactly where I should be right now and exactly want He wants me to be doing.
Friday, June 4, 2010
I stewed about it, my stomach grew sicker. I forwarded it to my family for some assistance. Census in the family was to do this or that. I went home and went to bed and tried to sleep so I could come to work tonight. It took a while but I finally did sleep. When I woke I found the family to still be stirring about this. Apparently he can not ban me from the funeral home, church service or grave yard service no matter who pays for the funeral. I found out my nephew (actually my cousin's son the sister of the message sender) got a letter himself only his was a little more threatening. My nephew sent me a message on how to report this person for sending a message like this on facebook and block him from seeing anything I ever do on facebook myself. So I did this. As for what else I was going to do. I gave it much thought. The message was ugly and mean; every part of me wanted to scream back, punch back or defend myself. There was a smaller voice inside telling me to take the high road and not even acknowledge this craziness. That is what I chose to do. I will not acknowledge this person, as far as I am concerned I can no longer hear this person or the evil venom he spews. I will honor my grandmother while she is alive and after she dies and not do anything to disrupt the her memory. She is a wonderful lady and has been the best grandmother a girl could have. So I chose the high Road. As the old saying goes "the squeaky wheel gets all the attention." I choose not to squeak, so the attention will not be on me.