Friday, October 22, 2010

Melt Down

I am at my son's house for a few days. Today I watched my grandson have a melt down and it made me think of something. How often do we as adults and especially Christian adults have melt downs when we do not have our way. How many times have I raced somewhere because i was running late because of my own fault only to get angry at the person in front of me who is driving slower than I would like.......How many times have I called customer service about something and got upset because I talked to machines instead of a person...then when the person got on the line I was upset with them for no reason at all but because I had talked to machines for a few minutes....How many times a week does my Father think I need a time out, sent to my room, or even need a spanking....HHMMM...
I get so busy with the life I think I need to keep going that I sometimes forget what is really important. My relationship with God. O don't get me wrong I Love the Lord and truly long to be with Him but most days I am soo busy with what "I" have to do that I forget or do not have time to spend with my Lord and Saviour. It is as unacceptable as it sounds. I know I should spend time with God first and then see to my needs and wants but do I always do that? No, I don't; do you? I have good intentions I want to spend time with God then I must get a shower do this or do that and somehow God get pushed to the end of my day....As I listen to my 2 year old grandson have his meltdown I wonder how many times do I sound like that to my God and Father.....HHHMMMM

Tuesday, October 19, 2010


You know I thought I was a patient person. I always thought I had twins that is the ultimate test of patience. What I realize as life goes on is I am not a patient person. I am a microwave, high speed internet have to have it right now kind of person. I HATE to wait. I do not like to wait for my food in the drive through line after all it is a DRIVE THROUGH line; not here in South Carolina. Her it is a drive up order your food wait ten minutes then I will acknowledge you are there and maybe give you your food in about ten more minutes. AAARRRGGGHHH!!! That drives me crazy. So I guess that proves I am not patient , huh? Ok so maaayyyyyybbbbeee I have a problem with patience. I know the Lord is trying to teach me about this but I also know I am not responding very well to His teaching. So I guess I need to work on this. How do I do that??? HHMM....

I applied for a job a while ago; went through most of the interveiw process and then it stalled. No has gotten the job yet. This was really bothering me after all I want to get on with my life, make plans. I have things to do and places to see. I gotta go go go....ya know....
Well a crazy thing happened the other day at work. There was a computer glitch incident that made it look like chemo was given to the wrong person..(It was not these meds are checked and rechecked several times with another RN and with the patient.) Anyhow I was approacehed about this by the clinical unit leader and was told to write it all in an email and send it to my boss. Not long after I sent the email my boss called me and talked to me about it. After talking to me abouth that she told me our unit educator was leaving by November 5. She said she would like me to apply for the position. It would only be posted internally and she only asking three people to apply and I was one. This is crazy and amazing to me because this is what I am going to school for. HHHMMMMM! Is this God's way of telling me he has other plans for me than I do????? HHHMMM.........I guess we shall see!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Simple Woman's Daybook

A couple of my blogging friends have done these entries and I thought I would too every once in a while so here goes.

Outside my window The sun is shining through the trees in the yard. It looks like its going to be another beautiful day.

I am thinking It is wonderful that the Chilian mine workers are being rescued. I am amazed that they kept their minds together for so long in such a small space. I am clostrphobic. I am sure I would not have made it 10 minutes let alone 69 days. The nurse in me is wondering if they will have any long term health problems from the experience.

I am thankful for my husband, who is in the kitchen right now making breakfast. My family whom I love dearly and all the blessings the Lord has bestowed on me.

I am wearing my night gown, not too pretty actually, my daughter gave it to me just a simple t shirt dress some would wear out. I have no idea what I will wear today, hmm I think Jean capri pants and a t shirt.

I am rembering Jessica, a little girl who was stuck in a well many years ago and wondering how she is today.

I am going to a Women's Conference tomorrow with the ladies from my church. It is at a resort in Litchfield, South Carolina about an hour and a half from my home. I am excited to spend time with my CHristian sisters and learn what the Lord has planned fro me to learn.

I am reading for school I am reading Advanced Theroetical Perspectives for Nursing, hmm interesting stuff (not really but o well gotta do it) and for my pleasure I am reading The Centurian's Wife by Davis Bunn and Janette Oke a compelling story of the personal slave girl of Pilot's wif and a centurion who are investing the missing body after Christ rose from the grave. I am getting to the good parts now although the reading has been a bit slow because of the interesting stuff I have to read for school.

I am hoping many things come to mind..I am hoping I soon hear that I got the job I applied for so I can work a regular Mon-Fri 8-5 job. My son in law will start the job he got at Fed EX and be able to move east soon so I can be a daily part of my grand sons lives. My sister and brother in law and his brother can recover the losses from the embelzement of their company from thier receptionist so they can keep their business they worked so hard to make.

On my mind my family as always how are my daughter and her family doing; my son and his family. My mom who is with my brother and his family helping with my neice who is recoevering from a couple surgeries for clubbed feet. My grandmother in a nursing home in Pennsylvinia hoping I cn see her soon. My school work, what do I have to do today. My house that needs cleaned, the master bedroom which needs repaired from a leak from our air conditioner which knocked down part of the ceiling that my ghusband says we can now remodel as we had wanted too, but where is all the money coming from? When will all the construction be done? Why can't someone from HGTV call me and come to fix it that would be nice.

From the kitchen absolutely nothing except the dishwasher humming doing our dishes. I have never claimed to be the domestic godess. Infact today it is Kevin's cooking day on the egg. (his new cooking toy that can grill, bake and roast)

Around the house I am thinking needs a gentle cleaning today and maybe its time to get the fall decorations out....and of course the construction project that is stalled because of finances

Plans for the week getting myself ready for the womans retreat and then Saturday kevin and I head to Atlanta for the Big Green Egg festival....I am pretty excited.

One of my favorite things riding my bike and spending time with my husband and my best friend, or maybe we will go canoeing...hmm just love spending time with him.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Haloween to celebrate or not? that is the question

My daughter in law who is a Christian in seminary classes with my son for women's studies and missionary minded as is my son recently posted this article to her facebook page:
I have to say the article made me think a little. I have not practiced haloween for years. My husband was not a Christian while my children were growing up so he say no reason why they could not participate. As they grew old enough to understand I voiced my concerns about the holiday and they made their decisions as teenagers what to do which I am sure was not easy for them having one parent against and one not.

So what do I think now. I still do not agree with haloween, I choose not to capitalize it. However after reading this article I do not agree with all the Christian community bunched up in the church while non-believers rome the streets in the hundreds. I do agree this is a perfect opportunity to share to Christ with those who choose to participate. They may not be responsive to the verbal witness but they may be responsive to a seat after walking a long time with their children, or a cup of water or hot coffee or coca. As the parents enjoy these niceties I could offer them a bible to read in their leizure with a few key passages highlighted. This sounds interesting to me. Because as the article states when will I get the opportunity to talk about Christ to so many unbelievers at one time.

HMMMMM! Just something I am thinking about. I have not decided what I am doing this year but I will definately be thinking and praying about it. I know that for sure.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Not so good experience helped me make a decision

Last Monday I had a experience that leaked into Tuesday that helped me make a major decision in my life. I'll start at the beginning.

I woke up Monday afternoon after working the night before; every thing seemed fine. I felt a little hungry but starting cooking dinner so I thought I will be eating soon. I will be OK. I was cooking chili. My stomach started to get a little upset and I started to get nauseated so I ate a pop tart, mainly because it was something to eat quickly. Kevin left for work on the night shift. I thought I'll just watch TV a while then eat letting my stomach calm down a little since the pop tart. All of the sudden while doing nothing but sitting on the couch totally relaxed; I started getting chest pain. At first I was not alarmed then the pain got much worse; it felt like crushing in my chest and on top of my arms. I became startled and called my doctor thinking maybe I could be seen in the after hours clinic for some kind of stomach issue.
They made me call 911 and come to the hospital. An ambulance arrived and I was wisked to the hospital, mostly mortified because I was in an ambulance.
In the ER I they did tests and decided to admit me for further testing.
I was admitted and spent the night in the hospital. The next day tests were done and I got to go home. I am told heart test come back good although I have to go see my doctor next week (she had to leave town because her nurse's dad died and she was going to the funeral. She told this Tuesday morning when she came into see me.)
Whiling laying around in the hospital alone I made some decisions. Every heart test was coming back normal; which is good don't get me wrong. But still something was wrong to give me that pain. I attribute it to low blood sugar. I get very symptomatic when my blood sugar gets in the 70s. Normal is 80-110.
Diabetes has been ruling my life for the past ten years. I try to loose weight and I gain it back. All the time trying to balance my diet and exercise so my blood sugar does not get to too high or too low. This has not been fun.
A while ago my doctor talked to me about gastric bypass. This procedure has been noted to CURE diabetes in 85% of those who have the surgery. I have decided to take the risk to be in that 85%. The whole process will take a few months before the surgery is even scheduled but I have started the process and plan to go through with it. Kevin and I have talked about it in length. I have only told a handful of my family members mainly because I actually do not know why. I have confided in my husband, my children, my parents and now you.
Once the process starts to be more actively I think I will start another blog to journal my struggles and triumphs. As for now I ask for prayers from my prayer warrior friends.