Saturday, February 28, 2009

A friend went home

I just come form a memorial service for a friend and brother in Christ. His name, Charlie Murray. Charlie was a big part of our life in our previous church he was the chairman of deacons and a Sunday school teacher, choir member. My Sunday school teacher. His wife Sherry is also wonderful The memorial service was a blessing because Charlie is now truly home with our Lord and Saviour. He suffered many illnesses in his life. I remember when I fist saw him in the choir singing in the back row with oxygen on. He had a lung transplant 10 years ago and dealt with that for a long time. Last year he got acute leukemia. He had treatment, a bone marrow transplant and finally a bacteria infection in his lungs took his life. He will be missed. But my heart is also happy for him because he is now with the Lord in a perfect body singing in the Lords choir.
Charlie I thank the Lord for letting you be a part of my life even when I was mad at you for whatever it happened to be. All my love to your family.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

I am excited and yet I still feel guilty

I am excited because I lost 2 more pounds! I feel guilty because although I have been working out like a mad women until I literally fall in bed and fall asleep. I have been holding back I do not exercise every day like they want me to. I also do not always eat healthy foods. Like just now I ate my dinner an new casserole from and then had to have an Oreo 100 call snack. Why did I need the Oreo snack? Did I need the Oreo snack or just want the snack? I think I just wanted the snack and I would not eat it if I did not buy it. So why did I buy it? A moment of weakness or is that another excuse. I have many. I need to do this totally and completely. Maybe I would lose more if I was more dedicated. But who is going to eat all those Oreo snacks I bought. I guess I am doing better with that I only ate 1 and will not eat any more I used to eat 2 or 3. O well time for school work and then to bed. Tomorrow is another day.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

It makes me angry

It makes me angry to see the Lord definitely moving in someones life and the turn their back on Him. My brother decided to believe the lies told to him by the girlfriend rather than go with the plan the Lord had put in place for him. I love him but I am angry with him. He has turned his back on God and on most of our family. It hurts me and I am sure it grieves Gos too!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

When people pray the Lord Moves

Hello all. I just wanted to tell you what transpired with my brother yesterday. My mom had an appointment with a lawyer for other reasons. She asked him if she knew a family court lawyer. He said he did and gave her the information. Mom called the lawyer (my brother is still a royal mess!) explained the situation told her my brother had not seen the baby for 3 days and he was a mess. The lawyer said she would take the case and told mom what to do. She said it would cost $1800. My brother got his taxes done yesterday and it was $2600. The lawyer is going to serve Nikki(the girlfriend) with papers to appear in court. She must appear. They will do a paternity test on my brother and Tyler proving he is the dad and they will give him parental rights for Tyler. They are trying to get custody of the baby for my brother since he is the main care giver for the baby.
I talked to my brother, who is not saved and made a royal mess of his life, that all this was happening because people were praying for him all across the country and he should get on his knees and thank God Because all this was happening because of God. he said he would.
Please continue to pray for this situation and for my brother's salvation.
Thank you all for your prayers and support!

Monday, February 23, 2009

Please pray for my brother

Hello y'all. My brother needs prayers. His girlfriend left him, which is a good thing but she took his son with her and will not let him see him. My brother's name is Tom; he is devastated and even attempted to take his life because of it. We as a family have rallied around him. She had severed his ties with us because she did not like the bond we all share. She has threatened him several times about taking the baby and never letting him see the baby again. Well two days ago they had a big fight because my mom called him to tell him he needed to call my sister because my brother in law is having some heart problems and will need an ablation procedure,( he could use prayer to his name is Mike). Any how his girlfriend caused a big fight and when he went to the store accused him of having an affair which he is not and left. Tom has not seen his son Tyler for two days. He actually got a call from her phone yesterday and it was the baby who must have just hit the call back button and he heard Tyler saying "dad, dad, dad"; then she took the phone and hung up.
My brother is a sweet kind hearted man who wears his heart on his sleeve and this woman has really done a job on him. I will not get into the whole long story but she is just not good for him. That does not mean he should not be able to see his son. Tom is a good man and he loves Tyler with all his heart. He has been the care taker for Tyler since he was born because the girlfriend worked and did not want Tom to. (I know it sounds crazy but it is true. He has been house husband since he quit his job because she accused him of sleeping with his coworkers.)(It is very Jerry Springerish! I know believe me!).
All I am asking is for prayers for my brother Tom for his salvation. I plan to talk to him about the Lord, I have in the past and want to again. Please pray that this is his low and he will allow Jesus into his heart and let Him fight the battles with the girlfriend and give him back his son.
Thank you Becky

Thursday, February 19, 2009

It is official

I will be working on the surgical oncology floor starting April 6. I spoke to my boss, one of the doctors I work with. The other I missed this week because a migraine kept me from working in her clinic, so I will tell her Tuesday. I also talked to my new boss who wants me to start earlier, I would love to but already gave my resignation. I'll have to think about that. I will have to rotate shifts but that is OK I worked nights for years.
I feel like a lead weight has been lifted from my shoulders! Praise the Lord that is over.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Random Picture Tag

This is our dog Tia. Carolina's Yellow eyed Tia to be exact. She is a Chespaeke Bay Retreiver. She is about 9-10 years old. She has been a very good dog. She has issues like she sheds like crazy, often you can find little tumble weeds of hair in my house from her. (It drives me crazy) But over all she has been a good daog. She has medical issues now has to take medication twice a day because she suffers seizures, because of this she has lost some of her cordination. She falls often now, not exactly falls but when taking a walk she may trip , stumbe, or even fall at times. We love her and will never be able to replace her.
If you are reading this you have been tagged. Go to your 8th picture file. Post your 8th picture and tell us about it.

Monday, February 16, 2009

I finally made a decision.... No just need the courage to proceed.

Hello blogger friends. I have finally made a decision on what I want to do with my job. In this era of unemployment and lay offs. I was blessed with choices as to where I wanted to work and have been struggling with the decision for months. This past month the Lord has really been talking to me about things in my life I need to take care of like..... my service to Him, my health, my education, family, and my job. I have shared some of this in previous posts. This past weekend Kevin and I took the camper to Myrtle Beach to spend time with my dad and step-mom together so we could bring our dog and not have to put her in a shelter for the weekend. (She really hates it and I do not have anyone around who can tend to her at the present time. She can not be left alone because she needs to take daily medication for seizures.) Any how, a few things happened to help me make the decision. 1. Last week I stressed myself out so much that I completely missed an assignment and did not turn in another I thought I did. 2. A co-worker of Kevin's died in a motor cycle accident. (He was not wearing a helmet...I could post a mouthful on that topic but now is not the place.) 3. My grand son called me and said"Memaw I miss you!" he is three and he lives in Oregon I live in South Carolina. I miss him and my daughter so much it hurts. I talk to them often but it is not the same. 4. I stayed up till 2am after I finally got to the beach to type a paper I had to turn in for my class only to find out I had typed it in the wrong format and again got a failing grade because I could not submit it correctly. I found out when I got home and checked my grades. 5. I took my weekly test for my class and failed because I have been so busy I have not had time to read the assignments. #5 was the straw that broke this camels back. I can not fail school! I have wanted this for too long and now my husband is in total support with this, not he was not before but now he is encouraging me to continue. I decided to go back into the hospital and work 3 12 hour shifts a week. That way I will have time off to study, can arrange my schedule so I will not have to take so much vacation time but can visit my family more often because I will have more time off. Shift differentials will also give me more money per hour from 3-7pm and on weekends. Most importantly I can go back to working at Kids Pointe, the children's ministry at the church. I had to quit because I had no time. I have already talked to the boss on the floor and she said I do not have to work Sunday's if I do not want to. If I have to work a weekend it can be Friday and Saturday. I can make my schedule rotate around Kevin's schedule so we will have more time to spend together.
Now I just need the courage to tell the people I work with now. I love all of them! That what has been making this decision so hard. I have to tell the doctors I work with who are right now writing me letters of recommendation to continue my schooling. They are both wonderful! I love them too. The nurses here and other staff are also wonderful. This is what will be the hard part but I have made the decision. I will talk to Megan, one of the doctors I work with. She will be one of the hardest to tell. After I talk to her I will talk to Denise tomorrow, the other doctor I work with, then I will talk to my boss here. I have decided to continue here until the first week of April, this weight challenge will be over and I will not have to be down town here as much.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Bittersweet Valentines Day

Happy Valentines day to all my blogging friends. We came up to Myrtle Beach to celebrate Valentines day in our camper. The weather is beautiful. The View is wonderful. We are right near the beach. My dad and step mom are in the next resort at Myrle Beach Resort Tower.

The bittersweet is, we just found out a friend and co -worker of Kevin's died in a motorcycle vs automobile accident last night. he has family but was pretty much estranged. I do not know the details. I also do not know if he is a believer. Please pray for his family. His name is Bill Hickman.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

I am blessed

I am truly blessed. I have two wonderful children. I have been praying for them for as long as they have been alive. (I prayed for them before they were born but I was not a Christan then.) One of the prayers I prayed is that God would find them the perfect mate. In this I feel God has answered my prayers.
My son in law came at a time when I felt my daughter was out of control. She was away from home and had no one to protect her. My wonderful, crazy, goth daughter in the army with all the guys. Along came a Oregon cowboy. He is sweet, funny and very protective of her. He was first her friend and watched out for her as her friend, even took her to the hospital to get an operation when I could not convince her that is what she needed it. He stayed by her side and made sure she took care of herself. After that they became more and their relationship grew. He is still after taking care of her and I might add driving her crazy sometimes but he is a blessing. I know she is taken care.
My daughter in law is a beautiful young Christan woman. I particularly prayed for my son that an over bearing woman would not take him away from me. Elise is not overbearing at all she is wonderful. She is sweet, silly and kind hearted. She is everything I prayed for a daughter in law to be. She balances out my son. She helps lead him in Gods direction with quiet support.
Both my son in law and daughter in law are very special to me. After all they are an answer to prayers and as far as I am concerned my children also. Now the Lord has blessed me more with children from both of these relationships whom I cherish. My grand babies. Both are precious, both are wonderful, both are a gift from my Lord and I thank Him for the blessings in my life.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Another Surprize Blog Citation and Friends

I was given a blog citation by my dear blogger friend Gina.
I started this blog about 2 years ago because I needed to journal my feelings. I had always wanted to journal and did a few times in this note book and that notebook. I was at work one night had some time to kill and a lot on my mind. So I started this blog. Now here I am 2 years later with wonderful blogging friends. Here I am me no matter what I am feeling and the wonderful friends who follow my blog send me encouragement, love and support. They cheer me up when I am down and share in my joys when I am on cloud nine! I thank the Lord for all of you, and I treasure your friendships.

Here is the description of the award guidelines and to pass it on... The citation reads: These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in prizes or self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers! There is an instruction that comes with this award. Deliver this award to 8 bloggers who must choose 8 more include this text into the body of the award.
I would like to pass this along to Gina, who passed it to me so you are except from the pass it on role, Dee, Cindy, Donna, Glenda, Val and Elise.


I have been tagged by my blogging friends Cindy, Donna, Dee and and Gina. You simply go to your sixth picture file pick the sixth picture post it and give the story of the picture.
This picture was taken in the play ground of the church where my son and daughter in law were married. It was the night of the rehearsal dinner. The kids were bored with the grown up stuff. One the merry go round is Haley, my niece's little girl. Running across the pay ground is Daniel, my nephew. In the background you can see my son in law, daughter and grandson Ethan by the swings. It was g great time and a great wedding.
Now you have been tagged so it is your turn.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Wow when God speaks I listen

OK, so everyone knows I am doing this challenge thing diet, exercise which should equal life change. Well I have been exercising every day, keeping my food journal, eating foods that are good for me, not eating after 9pm. Honestly I am barely eating the calories they gave me to eat, they actually told me I was not eating enough. SO I went to the weigh in last Thursday evening after a long day of work and their scale said I gained 1 lb. I was devastated. I thought I am killing my self with all of this and I gained a pound! I thought what is the use. I know my blood sugars have been better but I wanted poundage lost, ya know! SO I continued on with my Friday. I worked in the hospital and literally ran all day. I was exhausted after that so I went home, ate dinner and actually feel asleep in front of the computer taking my test for my classes I am taking.
Saturday, was Access, an all day seminar at the church. I registered but did not want to go. I got up the next morning and still did not want to go. I got dressed and went. Ten minutes into the program I felt like I had a spotlight on me and Cal, our preacher, was speaking directly to me. He actually spoke about how exercise is good for you! I was blown away! As the day went on several other references to diet and exercise came as the preacher and other teachers emphasised we should take care of the "temple of the Lord Jesus Christ". I cried all day. (Thank goodness I did not put make up on because it would have been a waste of time.) I went to see my dad for his birthday at Myrtle Beach after Access. I talked to him and my step mom about it, but did not exercise, just spent the evening relaxing with my dad. The next morning I went to church with them. Don't you know the message was basically the same thing! This preacher used different circumstances but it was basically the same message. One of the verses for the message was Philippians 1:6 He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus. I totally got the message. After church I went for a walk and praised God for everything and for letting me know this is truly what He wants me to do. I walked about 45 min to 1 hour as my trainer told me and later my step mom and I walked again on the beach.
SO I know this is what the Lord wants me to do and I know I can not do it. I have tried many times in the past and failed. Now its God's turn and I have to have faith and follow the rules.