Friday, November 28, 2008

Everyone has gone home

Everyone has gone home and got there safely. My sister Kelli and niece Ja'Liah were the last to leave and return home safely. It was so wonderful to be around all the family....Especially my kids....but it hurts so much when they leave. I found my self today a little emotional as I dropped my sister Kellie and niece off at the airport. I did not get to spend much time with her this week. My other sister monopolized most of Kellie's time....Its a long story I would rather not elaborate. It just makes me sad I had such plans to talk about God with my new Christan sister Kellie; but she was whisked off to bon fires and parties with my other sister. I am trying not to be bitter about it but it hurts my feelings that my other sister made Kellie feel guilty enough so she went with her.......and I got to spend time with her after midnight on the day she was supposed to spend with me....
Not really expecting a comment or response just wanted to vent my feelings... Thank you for letting me do that.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

I choose to give thanks to our God

In the picture my grandmother, Sharon, my daughter, Ethan my grand son and me.
First I give thanks to my Lord and saviour for my salvation and salvation of my family.

Second I am thankful for my family. My husband loves me, supports me and protects me. My beautiful daughter, who would have a fit if she knew I called her beautiful. But, she is and I thank the Lord for her. She thinks she is tough but I know her, she is tough on the outside but loving on the inside. My wonderful son, he is so sweet and cute and a man of God. I do believe the Lord has big plans for him some day. My son and daughter in law both of them are very special to me. I believe God picked them for my children to love and protect them. My terrific grand son Ethan, he is the apple of my eye. I thank the Lord for him every day and thank God for modern technology the lets me see him from time to time and talk to him. I also thank God for my new grandson Asher John who will be born Jan 15 if he waits that long.
My parents are wonderful and a blessing from God. Sometimes I have to bop mom but she is great. My dad and step mom are just plain good people and I love to spend time with them. My grandmother will be 95 years old on December 15, I thank God for her. I also thank God for all my brother and sisters I have 7 with step and halves but as far as I am concerned they are just my brothers and sisters.

I thank God for the friends he has given me. I thank God for my blog friends, those close and those across the miles.

Thank you Lord for all you do for me!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

I am trying to hold it together

Hello everyone. I am tyring to hold it together today.... My daughter's last day here.....I probably will not see her again for about 6 months or my precious grandson.....My son is going home to upstate, SC to night. He lives about 3.5 hours away....My sister in law and my dad will leave Monday morning.....At least I do not have to drive to Charlotte to drop of Sharon alone..My sister in law is riding with me so we can be sad together on the 3 hour drive back home.
I haven't posted for a while so I hope all is well. I will catch up all the posts I missed when everyone goes home....:(

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Need a miracle......Please pray

Hello all
Sharon, my daughter, just found out her next store neighbor's grand son who was hurt from an ATV (4 wheeler) may be in dire trouble. The doctor's called the family to his bedside yesterday. They think he may not make it. He is seven years old. His dad let him ride the ATV by himself;he flipped it; breaking several bones his pelvis, legs, arms, ribs, knee caps and clavicle. Dad found him 1 hour later. (That part is a whole other story...) Can you please say a pray for him today....Maybe the Lord will make a miracle recovery for this little boy. Sharon does not remember his name but her neighbor's name is Brenda........
Thank you

Sunday, November 16, 2008

I am having so much fun!!! The week has just begun.

They're Here!!!

They are here. Both Sharon and Ethan sleeping in my spare bedroom. So I may not be here as often for the next week.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Today is the DAY!!!!!!!

Today is the day!!!!! I am so excited and nervous and did I say excited. I have not seen them since May. I have to drive to Charlotte,NC to meet them. They save $500 by flying into Charlotte instead of here. SO I am leaving in a few minutes to make the 3 hour drive to Charlotte!
I'll let ya know when we get home.

Great day.......Wonderful night

Hello... Today was a great day. I got some shopping done...(maybe a little too much.) I had to buy Ethan (my grandson) some toys to have here at my house and other running around things. Tonight we celebrated my friend Karan's birthday with a spa type pampering theme. Her favorite color is pink so I thought I'd post in pink. Birthday girl would be the one in the tiara. We laughed and celebrated by pampering Karan and ourselves. We had massage chairs, did pedicures and manicures, and of course we had cake, pizza and chocolate...What more could a girl want! Right? We had a terrific time. Some of the girls are spending the night others of us had to get home.. Have a great night and I will be back tomorrow.....
Tomorrow I pick up Sharon and Ethan from the airport!!!!! I am so excited I can not wait to see them...

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Excitement.....Celebration....and still one more day till my daughter gets here

Hello all. I got some exciting news in the mail today. I made the Dean's list last semester!!! I got an official letter and a certificate. I am so excited! I have never made the Dean's list or honor roll in my life!! I am back in nursing school on line getting my bachelor's degree then going for my masters, I think.

Only one more day until I see my babies!

2 more days and counting!!!!!

I can not wait to see my babies!!! Sharon sent me some videos of Ethan dancing to his cds. I am so excited I am going to dance and play all week with them!! I was looking for some newer pictures but I do not have any. Next week I will take many and post for y'all to see.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Missing my kiddos

Tonight I checked my face book page and saw pictures of my son and daughter in law at her baby shower last Sunday several hours away from me. I was unable to go to the shower. It made me sad to see my son and daughter in law celebrating with her family. Don't get me wrong Elise's family are wonderful people. I just get jealous sometime I guess. My daughter was pregnant across country from me now my daughter in law is pregnant away from me. I only have two kids. Both of them are away from me and so are my grandchildren while the families of their spouses are right there. I try to be the bigger person but sometimes it just makes me sad! I have nothing else to say about that.

I can rejoice because I will see them ALL next week. My daughter and grandson will be here in 4days. My grandson called today and told me "Memaw I am ready to get on a plane and come to your house!" I am so excited I can not wait to see them!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Pearl Harbor the Movie......Veterans Day

I just watched the end of Pearl Harbor the Movie with Ben Affleck. I have seen it before so I did not ruin myself forever by seeing the end. It is a great movie if you have never seen it. I love Ben. He reminds me of my younger brother I do not know why. But he does. When Ben cries in a movie it tugs at my heart strings. I am not afraid to say I cry with him. EVERY TIME! Any how, the movie is a good historical movie for those who like that with a love story and touch of drama a love triangle, and let us not forget WWII.

It just makes me think of those men and women who are fighting for our country now over seas. I may not always agree with the war but I think the veterans fighting and retired deserve our respect and honor. My daughter and son in law were both in the army and could have gone to Iraq or Afghanistan. When I asked them why they would want to do that both of them simply replied. "It is my job, that is what I do." Their term ended before either of them had to go, I thank the Lord for that! But I know others have sons, daughters, moms, dads, brothers and sisters over there. I think we should all say a prayer for them as we go through our day tomorrow. They deserve it.

Five more days....

Five days.....I am so excited. I talked to Ethan my grand son today he wants to go to the beach!! SO when he gets here to the beach we will go!!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

One more week......I am so excited....

Hello my blogging friend. I am so excited because on Saturday.. In just 6 short days I go the airport to pick up my daughter and my grandson!!!!! I have not seen them since spring and I can not wait to see them! This is a picture of me with my daughter and grandson at my son's wedding last year. I will probably be babbling about this all week because I am sooo excited please bear with me. Love to all.....Becky

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Beautiful day.......Wonderful Walk

We went for our walk at the state park. It was beautiful!!! The Lord is great I tell ya. He makes all this beauty and still has time to think of me and my selfish problems. I need to lose weight. I am a diabetic and lousy about taking care of my diet. I am bad, very very bad. Right now I am struggling not to eat a peanut butter cup that is in the kitchen left over from trick or treat. SO I have been praying for the Lord to help me with this. Well one of the ladies from our walk asked me if we could be accountability partners. We could watch out for each other, be there for each other and that kind of stuff. Kind of like an AA sponsor. I could call and say I really want to eat the peanut butter cup in my kitchen........and we could encourage each other not to eat bad things....Sounds good huh? We are going to try this I'll let y'all know how it goes! But the Lord is good so I am sure this is His way to help me with this problem I have.....Love to all ...I'll be back have to get a shower.....sweaty from the walk.

Today...Saturday...Brand new day...Praise the Lord!

Hello all. Today is a brand new beautiful day. Praise the Lord. I have been up for a couple hours reading blogs and checking my face book stuff. I woke up today with a new attitude. Today is the first day the ladies from Monday small group and I get together for our walk in the park and share time. Praise the Lord, for He is good. He surrounds you with support all you have to do is believe with the faith of a mustard seed and He works wonders. I actually remember not so long ago feeling so alone and like I had no friends. I cried to the Lord and told him I felt lonely now look what He has given me. More and more friends. Friends here, friends there, friends from the past I did not know I had. Praise the Lord for He is good.
I'll be back I have to get ready........

Friday, November 7, 2008

No panic feelings....still coughing... but not panicing

Hello my blogging friends. I am feeling much better today have not had any panic feelings since I drove myself crazy that first day.......
I am however still coughing despite taking ALL the antibiotics. It seemed to go away for a few days....maybe a day or two...then coughing again! I called the doc again today. She is stumped. She is going to send to me have an upper GI because GERD can cause coughing if me esophagus is not closing all the way. ( I looked that up on the Internet.) Then if that is negative she will send me to a pulmonologist. I had a small pity party for my self at the thought that something bad could be going on but I am over that now. I am thinking GERD is causing the problem. SO I will have the test the doctor suggest and then make a diagnosis.
Thank you for all your support.
Be back tomorrow sometime. I have my first walk with my accountability partners. I also have a paper to write for the end of my school semester so I am sure I will be here while contemplating what to write... Good night :)

Thursday, November 6, 2008

I went

I went to bible study last night. Feel much better today. Praise the Lord for a Brand new day!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Challenging day for me

There has to be prologue to this post to help y'all understand my challenge. About 2 years ago I suffered from severe panic attacks to the point where I could not get out of bed for almost 2 months. We had thought we were moving out of state. Our house sold in less than a week and there was no where for us to live. We did not know what the plan was or where we were going. I had quit my job because I thought there would be a move and did not look like it was happening. I had lost complete control of my life. At the same time the doctor had tried me on a new medication for my diabetes which kept bottoming out my blood sugar. I would get really shaky and then have a panic attack to point of which I felt like I was having a heart attack. I went back to my doctor who had never seen me like this so she started me on a medication called Effexor. It really helped.
The doctor said this is a medication you really should not be on for the rest of your life. Now it has been two years and I do not think I need the medication any more. So I talked about it with my doctor and we agreed to taper off the medication. Today was the first day. I feel fine just tired. But, considering I just got over pertussis maybe I should still be tired. Today I find my self analysing every feeling I have like....... I woke up nauseated this morning and OMG my blood sugar must be low so without even checking it I ate something. Then realized today was the first day of the taper and started thinking am I feeling now..... how am i feeling now..... I am doing this to myself. I know this because the medication has not yet had a chance to make any changes. But I am fearful it will happen again. I only have to put my trust in Jesus and stop letting my own mind sike me out. I have my couple small group bible study tonight at 6:30. Kevin is working I am trying to decide if I want to go...... I'll let you know later....

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

I have to say The Lord Is Good!

Sunday night was awesome at our church! They have First Sunday Night of the month as praise and worship. I usually work at Kids Pointe Sunday night so Have not been to a First Sunday until this past week and I have to say it was awesome. I can not think of words to let you know how great it was. The whole service was about praising our Lord, and we did. If you are ever around Moncks Corner, SC on the first Sunday of the month go to the 5:30 service at Point North Community Church it is an awesome experience.

Monday Night I go to a small group for those with addictions. We support each other, listen to each other, share with each other and study the bible. I am addicted to food crazy as it seems. I am a over eater. I eat to feel good, eat because I am bored, lonely, sad, glad, alert, sleepy. You name it I eat for it. I am also a diabetic and a nurse so I should know better but I don't. I can teach my patients but not me isn't that weird. So I have been praying about this and asked God for help. I right now am too poor for weight watchers and once found out you can cheat on ww and still loose weight. So I need some one to be accountable to. Last night at small group one of our members Patsy patted me on the shoulder told me she struggles with over eating too. We talked after the study and decided we would meet on Saturday morning for a walk in the park. maybe a few other ladies from the group would come too. patsy told me since we both had the same problem with food maybe we should be accountability partners to each other. I was so excited the God had answered my prayer I cried most of the way home as I praised our most precious and holy Savior.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Today was wonderful!!

Today was a wonderful day. The weather was terrific. Sun shining, not to hot not to cold. My husband made me breakfast this morning, then I went to a meeting for Kids Pointe at church. When that was over I came home went to lunch and shopping with my husband. I had to buy a baby shower gift for a dear friend of mine daughter. She is having her first grandchild. So I also bought Karan (my friend) a gift. A small picture frame for her grandbabies picture. I found this wonderful cross with a quote from Psalms and for the baby and mom then a few more cute things. I went to the shower it was fun. Great to support a friend. Then off to date night with my husband and another couple. We went to dinner and a movie. FireProof was the movie> It was good.
I love my husband even after all this time. he is my best friend, my confidant, my support, and partner. I am so glad God gave him to me.
Thank you Lord for a wonderful day.