A worried Mom

I know I should not be because I know God is in control; but I am a mom. My son and his wife moved to semminary in NC last month. He quit his job to go to semminary becaue he felt that was where God was leading him. I know I should just be ok with that and I am but part of me still worries. They have not got jobs yet....School has started he has all his classes on Monday which leaves the rest of the week for work when it comes. I've talked to him about applying for assistance or unemployment and he says "Yeah, we talked about that,but...." And I think BUT WHAT son you need to pay rent and bills and have food for your family. I know God has provided for me when I was in a bind but this is my kid. Ya'know! We probably help them out as much as we can but I want him to do his part too ya'know...

My son in law is also looking for a job. My daughter thankfully has a good job now so they will be ok but have to cut corners a bit more. My son in laws unemployment runs out this week also.

My prayer....God I know you are always there and look out for your children. These are my children, Lord. I am afraid for them. My concern for my children is not as great as your concern for your child was because my children are not facing death on a cross; but it is concern and I know You know about that. Please help these young families that my son and daughter are a part of to get jobs to be able to follow your will for their lives... Thank you in your precious name...AMEN

Realizing how lucky I am

I am at work and have been working for the past three days 12 hr shifts. I have a patient who is 47 years old. She had laryngeal cancer had surgery and complications. Now she is bed bound with a whole in her neck to breathe through (trach stoma). On the wall in front of her bed for her to see is a picture of herself in her healthy days and a picture of her daughter who is 10. The sad thing is this woman will not get much better than she is. She is so young. As I was helping her tonight a thought came to my mind that had to be from the Holy Spirit with in me "But for the grace of God go I". This could be me or one of my family members. Working here sometimes is hard and trying when patients are very needy and families will not or can not help them causing the nurse to; or when I am called to a room to get someone a Pepsi when I am trying to get my work done with my other patients but it is also sad. But every once in a while God reminds me why He chose me to do this job. To give gentle care to a woman who can not care for herself, or even roll over by herself to use a bed pan. To give a hug to a patient I have known for several years, or just to sit and listen to someone who wants to talk or to those who want to talk but no longer can.
I just want to thank God for allowing me to do what I do and to thank Him for my healthy family.

Alone Again Naturally

When I was a teenager there was a popular song called "Alone again naturally". In the song the singer sings how he has this and that in his his life but somehow always ends up alone naturally. I identified with this song when I was younger because I always felt alone. Crazy as it seems sometimes I could even feel alone in a crowded room with people I love. I heard the song the other day and remembered that time in my life. I was lost and alone most of the time. I felt wonderful when I was with my friends or my boyfriend, who is now my husband, but after they left I always felt "alone again naturally".

Much has changed since then. I am a wife, mother, grandmother, accomplished as a nurse and love where I am and what I do. But, most importantly I am now a follower of Jesus Christ. I know that He is with me always and I am NEVER really alone. Wherever I am and where ever I go He is with me. OH, I am still human and make mistakes ALL the time and I have my opinions sometimes my opinions are a little selfish after all I am human. The difference now is I am a follower of Christ as I said He is always with me. SO I try to be the best person I can be. When I am selfish I now have an inner voice to let me know I am being selfish and acting human again. I know I am a work in process. to become ore and more like Christ everyday. O, I know I am not there yet but I do try to be the best I can be because after all I will never again be "Alone again naturally"

A wonderful two days and a great next week

We helped our son move to Wake Forest, NC. He is starting seminary to get his masters degree then doctorate degree. So he moved his family to the campus into a nice two apartment. So Kevin and I met them up there and helped them move in. It was wonderful to spend time with them. Spending time with my grandson Asher was wonderful. That was my job to keep him busy so they could get moved in. I spent two delightful days listening to my grandson giggle.

Next week, actually in two days I am flying to Oregon to see my daughter, son in law, grandson Ethan, and new grandson Remmy. I will post tons of pictures when I get back.