HE IS HERE!!!!

My grandson Asher John was born at 5:21 this evening!!! Weighing 7lbs 15oz. I am going to see him tomorrow! I'll have lots of pictures! O by the way when I saw his picture for the first time. My son sent it to me shortly after he was born. I cried!

I am sooo emotional these days!

I am sooo emotional these days. A while back you might remember I how I blogged about getting off of the medication for panic attacks. Well apparently this medication also helps hold back too much emotion. SO for two years my emotions have been on hold.....I did not realize this I was still emotional but apparently not my normal emotional. (That is what my daughter told me.) Now I can cry at the drop of a hat. Don't sneak up and say boo, I will most likely cry.....Why am I harping on this now....well because I cried at work today. I have been talking about the changes I am making in life for this new year. It involves a program run by MUSC (Medical University of SC) wellness center and nutrition dept called Healthy Charleston Challenge. I found out about the program last October; sent in my application, talked to the lady in charge of picking teams a few times and as recent as the week of Christmas. I am ready to do this program it will be hard work but I need to do something to get healthy. I called today just to find out what was next and was told I was not on a team! I was shocked! When I asked why she told me I hadn't paid the fee. I asked her when the fee needed to be paid because that was why I was calling and she told me DEC 10! I was shocked again!! I had talked to this woman several times and although she did tell me what the fee was she never told me when the fee needed to be paid. She said I did not seem as if I was going to be committed because I did not pay. This is when the tears started to flow. I have been looking forward to doing this program for months! I told her I would call her back and hung up the phone because I could not talk at this point. I went into the bathroom and cried my face red. Then I got control of my self told myself told myself I would do it on my own somehow and went back to clinic. I got a page shortly after as I was trying to eat my lunch, it was her again. She told me about how she did not think I was committed and I told her I was, how I realize this is going to be hard work because I have tried many times in the past and it has not worked and I needed to change my whole lifestyle because I would not be around long if I keep up my style. She talked a little more, yes I was emotional again, and then told me she would let me in if I could pay now. This really upset me because my husband has not worked for a few weeks and I have no extra money now. I told her this; she told me to come to the pre-test Tuesday and bring what money I could and pay her the rest later. Now I was crying because I was happy! I told her I would, then left the office again cried like a baby in the ladies room, waited until my face was no longer red and returned to work.
This was an emotional day for me! WOW! On top of that my mom fell at work a few days ago(Praise the Lord she did not break anything! She is bruised but ok) but because of this is not going to be able to go see my brother at the end of the month so she called me between phone calls from the challenge lady crying and upset.
According to my daughter this is my normal self, but I do not think it is normal. I think I am too emotional!

Re-Focus

Today at church the pastor's lesson was on re-focusing our lives. Ne Year, new life as in the last post. After being home from church for a while I got a major sinus headache and had to drug up and lay down. I woke up about 9pm with the pain even worse in my head. So again I drugged up and went back to bed. I woke up to the LOUD snoring of my husband. I had the sermon on my mind. We are in a small group that meets every Wednesday. The leader is in the air force and was sent to Germany for a few months so my husband has agreed to take over leadership while he is gone. When Kev is working that leaves me to lead the group. SO I started reading the lesson the correlates from the sermon. I red the scriptures but did not feel satisfied so I did a little search of my own. The first week is on the relationship we should have with Jesus. SO I searched out how Jesus picked the disciples, then friends, then eternity. In Exodus 33:11 Moses speaks of his face to face talks with the Lord. WOW! Now God wants this relationship with me! One of the ways to re-focus in the sermon was to memorize scripture. I decided to so this so my scripture for this week is:
Isaiah 43:13 Even from eternity, I am He, and there is no one who can deliver out of My hand; I act and who can reverse it.
This verse jumped out at me as I was reading. It comforts me because I know I am in the Lords hand and no one or thing can remove me from His hand.

Now since it is 2:42am and I have to go to work in the morning I will go back to bed since my headache is now gone I think I will go to work today. I had myself convinced I would have to call off. So good night to y'all.

A New Year a New Beginning

2009 a brand new year, a brand new beginning. Every year we have a chance to look back at the passing year and begin again with a whole new year. How many times we make resolutions and break them before the end of the week. I know I have broken a few in the past. Well this year I have decided to trust God with what I need to do. Right now my diabetes medicine is not working again. My disease is out of control. For the nurses in who read this the past three weeks it has not been uncommon to check my blood sugar at the end of the day and even in the morning and find it above 200; a few times above 300. I usually have no symptoms when it is high. I get bad symptoms when it is low vertigo, nausea, headache...
I also have a complication of the disease called gastroparesis. What this does is basically my stomach does not digest food. It does either on of two things it goes right through me literally, or it just lumps in my stomach causing me to feel nauseated and sick. It is worse when the blood sugar is high.
SO I have prayed about this a lot. I have a grandson and a new one on the way I want to be around for them like my grandmother was there for me.(She is 95!) So I am putting my physical life in the Lords hands. I joined a program at work called Healthy Charleston Challenge. It is a diet, exercise and nutrition program. It starts Jan 15, so because I do not want to want any more and I am following the first two weeks of the South Beach Diet. It is basically a protein diet with green vegetables, some fats. What the first two weeks do is break the carbohydrate craving which will be a good thing for me. The plan is to start Monday. My husband is doing the South Beach thing with me too. I just want to be healthy. Diabetes is a crazy thing because it kills you slowly without a symptom. When the sugar is too high it kills your kidneys, eyes and other organs, can also lead to a stroke which runs in my family. When it is too low it messes with your head. Right now besides the one complication everything else is fine. I would like to keep it that way for a long long time, Lord willing.
So I will start every day with the Lord and pray for my diet through out the day, the challenge will add more exercise to my life so that will be good. Its a new year and a brand new life. I can do all things with Him who strengthen me.

Happy New Year Blogging Friends!