I just opened myself up for a big disappointment

I don't know if I should have done this or not but I just unblocked my cousin and sent her a message on my facebook page. I was really hurt by all the accusations made about me when all the stuff happened with my mom. I still am sometimes. But I have really been thinking about her lately and I do not know why. Silly as this sounds we used to watch the series V together way back when and now that it is coming back out that maybe why. I just really have been feeling like I should contact her. Maybe it is the holy spirit nudging me to make amends. I don't know. All I know is I took the lea of faith and sent her a message on facebook. I will keep y'all posted

Counting my Blessings

I often times come here to complain or whine about what I am thinking and what is going on in my life but lately i have been thinking of the many blessings in my life. I'd like to share a few.

• I am healthy. I have a few aliments I need to tend to and I do take some medications but all in all I can do what I want when I want independently.
• I have a wonderful husband who is also healthy; and he loves me, and has for over 30 years.
• I have two healthy children; who have grown up to be responsible adults who know right from wrong.
• Both of my children have married good people who treat them well.
• I have two glorious grand children who are healthy and I cherish them.
• I have a nice home and a job so I do not need to worry where the mortgage payment is coming from.
• All three of my parents are healthy and able to live their lives. (three parents mom, dad, stepmom)
• I have a relationship with everyone of my brothers and sisters.
  
• I have a church that I love and am able to work for the Lord which I also love.

I have many more blessings I could add like the sun and the moon and the stars. The trees and the leaves which are such beautiful colors now. (I can see the colors now at my daughters house!) I wonder how could anybody ever look at this beauty and deny there is a God! I could go on and on and on with the blessings in my daily life. Maybe I should make that a practice more often than I do. I try to thank God once a week for the blessings in my life but do not always do it. So I am doing it here now Lord in this public place! Thank you Lord for my many blessings none of which I deserve!

I am in the North West again!

I am here in Oregon again! I love coming here and seeing the "Barth's", thats my daughter's family. I love to see my Ethan. I got several hugs today and even got a big muscle hug from him. Thank you Lord for blessing me and letting me spend time with my kids and grand kids. I will be here for 10 days so I can fit in all the big muscle hugs that I can! It is beautiful the leaves are just turning. I am so excited ! I'll blog more as I can

Lately I have been thinking

Lately I have been thinking a lot and getting that maternal urge. It may be because I have not seen the kids for a while so hopefully this month seeing both Bryan's family and spending time with Sharon's family will take care of it. I have just been seeing things like with world vision and in church today about children and I want to scoop them up and show them what real love is all about. My sister in law occasionally sends information from the agency where she adopted my niece and their stories and pictures break my heart. I keep thinking I do not have a whole lot of money but I have love and I can share that with them. My husband thinks I am crazy and tells me there will be no more children in his life unless they are grand kids.
Once while we were driving i was talking about this and Kev said "wait be quiet......Nope no one is calling me." Of course I laughed until I almost peed my pants but I wonder why this feeling is so strong in my heart......Is it just menopause or God really calling me to do something?
I decided to do something so I am going to volunteer my time at the Low Country Crisis Pregnancy Center. They know I am a nurse and want to train me to counsel the young women and also use the ultrasound machine. And I have been thinking about missions a little maybe I can help that way with my church.