Tuesday, January 13, 2009

I am hurt and angry.....I would just like to punch them

Well more hurtful words from my Pitsburgh family have come. My mom talked to the lady at the state office that needs the paper work detailed in last post. The lady from the state called my mom's brother in law (whom I will never again call uncle, because that term is reserved for family and he is not any longer). Then mom's bil (brother in law) called mom stating she was getting 15 days to get paperwork together which the state lady had already discussed with my mom. He also said if it was not done on time he was suing her and me! Mom and my Nana(grandmother) stayed with me in my house for 1 1/2 years paying only $150.00 a month for every thing. I actually used it to get food for all of us! Now he is saying that I stole money from my grandmother too!
I am so angry and hurt I could punch him and his whole family! They stayed here basically rent free. When my mom was sick I took care of my grandmother and if I was not here my husband kept an eye on her. We paid for a roof over their head, water, electric, cable, even their medicine at times. No one from their family offered to keep my grandmother in their home. I did! By the way they also accuse me of kidnapping my nana. She is and was completely alert and knew exactly what was going on. She knew and wanted to come stay here with me and my mom. I am hurt because these people are my family. There has been tension in the past with my mom but I have always been close to these people. My cousin was supposed to be my best friend. They obvously do not know me at all and it hurts.

As I was driving down the road crying to God about this and stating I did nothing wrong why are they doing this to me a thought come to my mind. Jesus did nothing wrong and suffered far more thatn I am. I know God is with me in this and will take care of me. I am not ready to pray for them but I will try.


lookuptoday said...

I am so sorry these people are still hurting you.It isn't fair. These people should be ashamed of themselves. You are in my prayers.((HUGS)) Dee

beckymc said...

Thank you

Gina said...

I am so sorry you have to endure something like this. Remember that "we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against, principalities, powers, rulers of darkness and wicked spirits in high places." I will pray that God's light will shine and will expose the truth to those who need to see it.

Donna's Book Nook said...

Becky--I am so sorry this is happening to you!. God is still in control and he knows your heart. I will pray that God will work in the hearts of these people. Donna

Anonymous said...

This tagged Anonymous, but it's your handsome and charming son. I'm just to lazy to have a blog.

I think cause is not the issue here. The only good cause to the whole situation is anus-ness. That's right...I said it. Uncle Tom and Aunt Carol are being total and complete buttholes. You know kind of where they stand in faith (or lack thereof). You didn't do anything wrong and certainly don't deserve the hostility coming your way.

You should probably revisit the Sermon on the Mount when you get a chance, that's Matthew 5-7:29. I think it's the greatest teaching on ethics and morality ever. Plus, it's best read as a whole, at one time. Maybe the Spirit will speak some truth. Truth, by the way, is really the issue here. Truth flows from God, lies and deceptions are tools of the enemy.

One last thought, I always think of the book of James to be challenging and encouraging because of his message is unflinchingly practical. Do this, don't do this. That kind of thing. You should paruse it at your leisure as well. But I leave you with James 1:2-5 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverence. Perseverence must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him." Hardships and trials are certainly...well...hard. But nothing, absolutely nothing, happens without God's foreknowledge. Our one true comfort in all of life's hardships is that a good God allowed these hard things to happen according to His will and design.

I love you a lot Mom. I can't wait to see you guys on Monday. Call me anytime if you need to talk. I love you!