I am feeling much better today. I talked it out with my small group last night and today I have a better attitude.
I got a call from my mother's sister last night basically telling me we are calling the nursing home my grandmother is in too much my mom, sister and me. She said the nurses complained because we were calling basically every day and disturbing the nurses. I do not know why she called me. I was trying to figure that out. Maybe because I am a nurse and would think she was telling me the truth? Maybe because she did not want to talk to my mom? I was civil on the phone and hung up with out any pleseantness. It upset me at first I thought here we go the next step of them taking my grandmother away from me. I talked to my mom who said she was going to buy my grandmother a cell phone we could call. I thought after talking to mom I would call occasionally but I would vow to send myt Nana a card, note or some kind of greeting everyweek. That way she could remember everytime she sees it that I love her. That idea made me feel really good so I got together her first package with pictures of the new baby and a card from me. I will send it on Saturday when I can get to the post office; it is a bigger envelope and I want to make sure I get the right postage.
I have a better attitude now. I can not pray for nice things for them right now because the wound is too fresh. I am calmer and do not want to punch anyone today. That is a good first step I think. Praying for them will come in time.
Thank you for all the support! I honest and truely appriciate it!
My son I love you more than words can say. You your sister and your dad are always there for me and I praise the Lord for all of you!