I finally made a decision.... No just need the courage to proceed.

Hello blogger friends. I have finally made a decision on what I want to do with my job. In this era of unemployment and lay offs. I was blessed with choices as to where I wanted to work and have been struggling with the decision for months. This past month the Lord has really been talking to me about things in my life I need to take care of like..... my service to Him, my health, my education, family, and my job. I have shared some of this in previous posts. This past weekend Kevin and I took the camper to Myrtle Beach to spend time with my dad and step-mom together so we could bring our dog and not have to put her in a shelter for the weekend. (She really hates it and I do not have anyone around who can tend to her at the present time. She can not be left alone because she needs to take daily medication for seizures.) Any how, a few things happened to help me make the decision. 1. Last week I stressed myself out so much that I completely missed an assignment and did not turn in another I thought I did. 2. A co-worker of Kevin's died in a motor cycle accident. (He was not wearing a helmet...I could post a mouthful on that topic but now is not the place.) 3. My grand son called me and said"Memaw I miss you!" he is three and he lives in Oregon I live in South Carolina. I miss him and my daughter so much it hurts. I talk to them often but it is not the same. 4. I stayed up till 2am after I finally got to the beach to type a paper I had to turn in for my class only to find out I had typed it in the wrong format and again got a failing grade because I could not submit it correctly. I found out when I got home and checked my grades. 5. I took my weekly test for my class and failed because I have been so busy I have not had time to read the assignments. #5 was the straw that broke this camels back. I can not fail school! I have wanted this for too long and now my husband is in total support with this, not he was not before but now he is encouraging me to continue. I decided to go back into the hospital and work 3 12 hour shifts a week. That way I will have time off to study, can arrange my schedule so I will not have to take so much vacation time but can visit my family more often because I will have more time off. Shift differentials will also give me more money per hour from 3-7pm and on weekends. Most importantly I can go back to working at Kids Pointe, the children's ministry at the church. I had to quit because I had no time. I have already talked to the boss on the floor and she said I do not have to work Sunday's if I do not want to. If I have to work a weekend it can be Friday and Saturday. I can make my schedule rotate around Kevin's schedule so we will have more time to spend together.
Now I just need the courage to tell the people I work with now. I love all of them! That what has been making this decision so hard. I have to tell the doctors I work with who are right now writing me letters of recommendation to continue my schooling. They are both wonderful! I love them too. The nurses here and other staff are also wonderful. This is what will be the hard part but I have made the decision. I will talk to Megan, one of the doctors I work with. She will be one of the hardest to tell. After I talk to her I will talk to Denise tomorrow, the other doctor I work with, then I will talk to my boss here. I have decided to continue here until the first week of April, this weight challenge will be over and I will not have to be down town here as much.